Hello all!!! I am new to this website, but not to LD’ing. This will be a long post so I apologize in advance. Please keep an open mind when reading this and give me some honest feedback!!
About 3 years ago I was introduced to lucid dreaming by a coworker. At this time I was also going to college for psychology. I became very good at LD’ing several times a week. I started thinking about LD from a scientific standpoint, like, what can I get out of doing this? Can I make myself a better person? Smarter, more motivated, rid myself of bad habits? I decided to find what defines me, in my dream. I am going to try and make a long story short.
I see my “brain” as a school campus. I walked into an auditorium and found a huge black board with everything that defines me as a person written on the board. I started to wonder if I could change these things. I found some chalk but could not find an eraser. I decided to draw a line through what I wanted to change and I would write something new in free space on the board. As I started to draw a line through the words, the chalk began to crumble. Before long it was all gone and I woke up.
The next time I was lucid I went to a store and got a new box of chalk and an eraser. When I walked into the auditorium again, I found that the board was covered by glass doors with a lock on them. I looked down and saw a key. When I picked up the key and walked to the lock I saw a note with very small writing on it. I had to get very close to read it, and when I did, it was my handwriting and it said, “you know better.” It literally scared me awake. On a side note, being able to read that note “from myself” and even what was written on the board seems somewhat impossible right? I have never been able to make sense of anything written down in a dream before. I think that is part of what scarred me, I remember looking away, and looking back, it was unchanged.
Since then I have not LD’d again. I have recently discovered a new interest in LD’ing. I have decided to try this again. Anyone have any experience with this. Do you think it is possible to actually change what defines you as a person in RL through your LD? Anyone willing to try this, I have been trying to have an LD for the past two weeks, with one partially successfull one last night. I did not get anything accomplished however, I decided to have a little fun and visit some old DC’s. Let me know what you think!!! Thanks