I got last night what is my first lucid dream since I discovered this forum and other websites about it. I had had one when I was younger but I didn’t know about lucid dreaming at that time.
In last night’s dream, I became conscious of the state of being dreaming in the middle of a dream that had nothing special. And I made my arm move several times just to be sure I was actually capable of it. Then I willingly kissed a girl who happened to be there (…). In fact, moving my arm is what I had done in my first (old) LD, so I guess I spontaneously wanted to try it again.
Since I was aware of the fact I was dreaming, this is actually a lucid dream.
However, it raised a few interrogations in my mind, when I woke up :
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First, I didn’t remember it as I woke up. I was quite tired the day before, so I had a good night of sleep (3 hours more than what I usually sleep), and when I woke up, I thought I hadn’t dreamt at all (which is impossible, I know). I only realised later I had dreamt, and “Oh…” first LD, yeehaa ! So, since the memories of it are quite vague, I wonder if I didn’t imagined all this during the day. But let’s say this really happened.
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Leaves me to my second thing : the dream wasn’t really vivid at all. Sensation of dreaming was vague and the feeling of position and movement of my arm was really less clear than in my old LD.
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I didn’t try to have this LD. The only thing I did since I found information about LDing is starting a new dream journal (a written one. Typing + translating to English my French journal would be even more time consuming…). But after all, I hadn’t wanted the very first one and it had happened anyway. Why not.
All this made me wonder about the very mechanism of dreaming :
Is it, as we intuitively think, a phase during sleep when we get back to conscience, and our senses are replaced by creations of the brain, following a kind of script, a storyboard ? But then, does the “thinking” part of conscience awakens too ? I really often “think” in my dreams, but I can’t know if it is a part of the script, or if I still have an independant part of me that is allowed to make reflexions about what the other part shows.
In a lot of dreams, I made decisions, used my free will and free thinking, but those decisions and thoughts were a part of the “script” : it was not “lucid dreaming”.
And I think it is a very important question, because, if the dreams are totally “scripted”, it means that lucid dreams could also be : every part of them :
- the knowledge of being dreaming
- the sensation of being actively thinking
- and, if relevant, the free will, and “control” of the dream
I mean, if we can dream of “eating pizzas on Mars”, why couldn’t we dream of “being dreaming and think about it, and make decisions, and move left arm and make a girl appear, and kiss her” ?
In fact, I now remember a few dreams where I had the thought of being in a dream, but it doesn’t really match the idea I have of lucid dreaming, because then, I simply thought (after waking up) that it was a part of the script of the dream.
Now I spent all the day wondering… It would be a little disapointing if lucid dreams were simply normal dreams in which the script included information about thoughts, conscience and free will…
Plus, the fact that all we know of dreams is what we remember of them is very disturbing. I’m already wondering about whether what I recall is correct or not (about this night’s dream, and the first I had).
To sum it up, I’m trying to decide what happens during a dream, when a part of the brain replaces the senses :
- our thinking center (and decision center if LDing) are really in the same state than when awake, and actually think about (and control during lucid dream) the dream. They are independant from the dream.
- thinking and deciding are elements of what the brain replaces during the dream (not only senses). I’m sure about the thinking (it happens very often), but it’s more disturbing about the control and free will.
To sum up the sum up :
If the brain can simulate thinking and deciding in normal dreams (and even the knowledge of being dreaming), how can we be sure that it doesn’t do the same during lucid dreams ?
Sorry for the long post, but this second LD ever has put me in the same philosophical state than the first had
I really like to know how we work. I think it’s fascinating.