Last night I had an LD (almost yeah), but it wasn’t quite what I wanted it to be. I woke up about 5.5 hours after going to bed, drank some very cold water, and as I got back into bed I kept repeating to myself, “I will realize I’m dreaming.” Like most of my LDs, this one was short and didn’t occur until towards the middle/end of the dream. There was one more problem with it, though:
I was talking to a father-figure who was very nice and I said to myself, “Too bad this is only a dream.” Well, for the first time I managed to keep myself in the dream when I felt myself coming awake. Anyway, time goes on and I meet this guy who’s rather good looking. (I may have been slipping back into an ND, but anyway…) The bad thing is that even though I’m still lucid, I have no desire to do any of the things I’ve thought of doing IRL. The only thing on my mind is sex Now, as a Christian I consider myself a very moral person and this kind of stuff doesn’t help me at all. Nothing ended up happening (as in most of those types of dreams), but still…
So, do you think it was that I lost lucidity and my subconscious decided to do a cruel prank on me, or was something in my head just malfunctioning? I want to have LDs (duh) but not if they’re going to end up like that.
-Amé