I’m a scientific person
I consider myself to be intelligent.
Why am I saying this?
Because Id like to make an apology first…
When I first heard of LD, I figured it had to be some
spiritual nonsense. And no matter how tempting it seemed
,I figured it’d be something like tarrot: funny to try but not real.
Yet, ive had one , a little small lucid-like dream… a few days ago:
I dreamed I was a rich lord, having servants and such.
Walking through my school talking to a criminal I was planning
to release, because I knew he wasnt guilty of whatever crime he was accused
of ( this happened walking through my school yard, guess I lacked all sense of logic in my dream).
So I allow him to escape. Suddenly I go look for some thugs, and I pay them to retrieve the criminal alive ( guess I was planning something evil).
The thugs return with the criminal and I ask the mayor to make him my servant since I was the one who ‘captured’ him.
At that point I woke up. Yet, I found that dream to be so pleasant and so amusing that I kept imagining how it shouldve ended.
The next hour or so I spend semi-awake/asleep imagining what’d happen next, and seeing it all happen infront of my eyes.
And it wasnt untill the next day that I shockingly realised how detailed my dream, the dream I was directing from behind the screens, actually was.
I know its not 100% a lucid dream, but it gave me a taste of how amazing it couldve been or wouldve been.
So: Im now fully open to LD ( though im still an atheist).
AND IM GOING TO LD AGAIN!
Yet, im afraid.
Of sleep paralysis , nightmares etc
Im afraid I’ll wake up in the middle of the night, with sleep paralysis seeing
scary demons or zombies or three-headed pigeons … Ive always been afraid of the dark.
I’m afraid I’ll have a nightmare and do something stupid allthough Im lucid.
Getting cornered by a two-headed hydra.
Realise i must be dreaming.
start thinking about all the worst case scenarios and experience something horrible
that id actually be able to ‘feel’ or at the very least would seem real.
Akwardly long post … but meh, i need some motivating words.