This is from my dream journal, so be flexible.
Well, this time I was actually trying to achieve a ‘controlled HI’ or active imagination I guess. It is where you are awake, you can feel all your limbs and all, except your daydreaming, a very vivid like daydreaming like HI. Not entirely sure if I would call it controlled HI, but for now its fine. It is actually a deep meditation with your vivid imagination. The goal is to get sucked into a daydream while meditating to the point where it produces images and actual cinimatic effects like a dream would.
Now I was lying down, had already slept right… So I then started to daydream, starting with a girl. Then I felt it start to drift which now I know was my overall mistake. But then it began to drift to other things which led me to SP. Next thing I knew I was talking on my PS2 microphone and some dude said something in a foreign language and I repeated back, “What was that?”… WSSSSHHH Loud noises shook my mind awake and took me by suprise! I was like, “Oh I know what this is.” I felt my body sort of like I was freely spread out all my limbs and spinning in different directions throughout darkness. I was literally spinning, felt like I was being pulled from my body, also to acompany the loud earthquake sounds, my breathing was faint and my heart was racing for miles. Soon enough, I woke within 10-15 second I guess.
I sat awake a few minutes trying to take in what I just went through, not even meaning to do it. So then I am like, “Ok never been that far before, lets try again.” Then I thought to myself, “Hell no, that was scary as shit!” Soon though I just decided to quit being a pussy and try it again.
It was easier this time, I was able to drift into SP 2 or 3 more times before falling asleep. I felt myself actually getting the hang of it, forcing SP so to speak. By making my eyes go up (not back and forth) but just up would begin the SP cycle. I found that I either failed each of them or wasn’t conscous enough to reach the dream state.
Let me mention for anyone who wants to try this, you must not think or fear anything or it won’t happen. Focus on your daydreams while going to sleep, don’t be too tired. If your ‘too’ tired, then go right ahead and count to keep awake. I find though through several different occasions that focusing on my daydreams while going to sleep keeps me conscious enough to experience SP. It works for me a lot more than counting does, trust me. Also my SP appears to look like small movies, not pictures. =/
Questions
I heard that SP takes like 40 minutes, is this time feel like it is sped up or does it last little time?
Is there a difference between going through HI and having an active imagination?
^Also realize what the definition to an ‘active imagination’ is, some use it for meditation. Any additional links are appreciated to explain.
Is there any way to tell if SP is coming or not? It took me by suprise.
Does moving your eyes all the way up help induce SP? I actually did it twice but I want to make sure. This was after I had an accidental SP, and I was half and half conscious.
How do I know when it is time to move myself into the dreamscape?
Is it suppose to be black and feel like I am spinning around through space? No stars
Am I suppose to feel like I am being pulled from my body? God this freaked me out, I actually remember questioning myself if I was sure about doing this. Please don’t even mention any OBE bullshit, I don’t believe in this stuff, nor do I like it.
^I remember asking myself what if I cannot return to my body? Due to this, I woke up. Please ensure me that there won’t be any serious consequences.