Hey peeps! 
I know that some of you recognize my name and some don’t. Some know me by the alias snakedeyes/ snakeeyes/ snake and some know me by my real name Pavel (or Pavel1503). Well, here is my little “sad” story:
I joined Ld4All when it was called “through the mirror” and this site generally what fueled me to continue lucid dreaming (I began at approx. 98’-99’). Well the story began when I was constantly trying to (guess what) go through a mirror inside a lucid dream. I achieved my first LD after about 3 weeks of trying with the techniques offered in the site and by the lucidity institute. When I finally went through the mirror in a LD it was the most amazing thing I have done (that time) and the place I saw was even more amazing than what I have imagined. My LD got a lot of colors due to that fact that I have seen the “through the mirror” world.
Ok so I will fast forward some years…
2002 - I have made a huge experiment in a LD where I tried to extract data from my memory that I have seen only once in my lifetime (when I was 7 years old). The experiment took me a lot time to finish (months) and when I finally finished gathering up data from LD it took me some more time to find the original (a yearbook from 92’ that I have seen only once). When I did, the experiment went 90%+ correct which proved me beyond the doubt that you actually can rely (in a 5-10% standard error) on a memory extraction in LD.
2003 - I have joined the army in the Israeli Armored Forces as a Tank Commander and began neglecting the sleep science since well… I didn’t have enough of sleep to make some science from it 
2006 - I have finished my service to the country and thought I can just like that 
return to the lucid dreaming world… I thought wrong. After many attempts and months of trying I didn’t succeed and after some time that I did, I was already so busy in the waking life I thought it would be impossible to be busy in the dreaming life as well.
2007 - I start over, thinking I can do it again. I sign in to the new Ld4ALL site and start reading and helping as much as I can remember from my times as a good and experienced dream walker. Again… nothing… I achieve some LDs but most were very dim/ short and without reaching a stable good environment to explore. So I feel frustrated by that fact and leave it alone, again.
2009 - I try again. This time I really put an effort to that. I even post my dreams in the forums “https://community.ld4all.com/t/the-path-back-to-lucidity-blucid/30414&&start=0”. Yet again… slowly I realize I cant reach the same level that fast.
I guess what frustrated me is the fact that back in 2003 pre-army, I had at least 1 LD per night and during weekends I could generally LD whenever I felt like it (WILD/VILD elevator technique mostly - yours’ truly invented). Comparing that life to that days’ once per month - I just couldn’t take it.
2011 - I felt like trying again but from a more mature POV. I plan my actions and my approach and I realize that I didn’t do what I have always done during my great period - Setting Goals. I quickly post a video in youtube about the correct approach just to help me remember the way I did it back then and I begin all over.
True, this time was the fastest time I could reach the first LD and it was very good. Still, it wasn’t the same and finally made me feel that same feeling I was experiencing those latter times. I neglect it again. (Youtube - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kFJ_3xLVrCY)
Folks, this is my problem. I don’t know what makes me stop eventually. Right now I am starting fresh with expectations and goals set. I even have the first purpose for LD - The chess experiment. I am afraid that I will neglect it again due to odd reasons.
Do you have any suggestions?
