Here I go again, posting about WILD’s. I have been casually trying to WILD for half a year now, with no real success but alot of progress. I used to have a hard time falling asleep when I wanted to but while practising I have got more used to taking naps and sleeping when I want during the day. Allthough, it still takes me a fair amount of time before I experience anything during my WILD attempts (30-40 minutes). I always try to achieve a WILD during early mornings or afternoon naps. I also try to wary my postures since I still don’t know which one works the best. Anyway, this is what happens.
I lie down on my back, relaxing as much as I can, relaxing muscles and trying to clear my mind. After some time I get really numb and warm, and I feel something that I can best describe as a “rush” of something trough my body, then my heartrate goes up, and I feel my breathing get irregular ( Im pretty sure this is not an effect from me getting excited, since I have sort of got used to it now. ) But this is where I fail. All the sensations stop, I feel disappointed and do a RC, find out that im wide awake, and give up. Sometimes I start to snore instead of feeling the “rush”. But I never snore otherwise, its more of a really deep breathing that seem to come from the back of my throat/nose. But that usually pass aswell or I fall asleep normally.
I have had some other experiences that I feel stood out from the rest. Once or twice I literally felt this -switch- in consciousness where it seemed to move behind my eyes, deeper into the head ( Which faded after some time and I was awake .) I have also felt myself get detached to a point where I can almost feel myself being somewhere else, but it either pass or I do a rc and find out that im awake.
This is really frustrating since it feels like im so damn close, but I never seem to able to cross the treshold.
Personally I think that I fail somewhere when my breathing gets irregular, it is really hard to ignore, and my effort in trying to NOT pay attention to seem to make me too aware. Like I do not want to control it but can’t help it.
I also think that I need to find a way of keeping aware that suits me really well, so far I have been counting, since I find that it works best, but it might keep me a little bit too awake. Visualization is not really my thing, works sometimes but not that often.
I hope someone reads this wall of text and feel that they can give me a few pointers. Since I feel I make way to slow progress.
// Kris