For a lot of my life (I haven’t gotten this feeling in about a year and a half) I would occasionally (at a random time of the day) get a sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach that would last the whole day. I would feel like I didn’t belong in this world (I definitely wasn’t suicidal though), and I was afraid to go home because I didn’t feel like I belonged there. Like I’d be going to an unfamiliar place, but I didn’t want to stay at school either because of the same reason.
Anybody ever hear anything on this? I think it’s very strange.
When I was a very little girl I used to call it my ‘Lonely feeling’ because there was no other way I could describe it.
No matter how close I was to my parents or my family, I still felt so apart.
It was a lot for a 4 year old to take in.
I still get it, and I am yet to find a way to make it go away. It’s quite scary, one of those feelings of utter dread.
You want to feel protected, but for some reason, you feel so alone. Even when you know you’re not.
Seasonal affective disorder is hat the “experts” call it. Ive had it my whole life and i m 40 now. It occurs to varying degrees and has not subsided yet. Maybe if we look at natural planetary cycle we could get more answers. In winter right before solstice when plant stop producing either vegetative or flowering growth to save stored energy to make it through the winter. Maybe you are just more tuned with nature. I realize its not much of a comfort to someone (like myself) who suffers from the same malady. But it is something. Depression is a very real and terrible thing all you can do is realize it and know that others have it also and persevere.
You are most certainly not alone.
I know I’ve had that feeling. Where everything just seems distinctly wrong, even in familiar locations. It’s like getting lost, but instead of not being able to find your way back to wherever you got lost from, or to wherever you were trying to get, you don’t know where either of those places are.
…that’s kinda not making sense…maybe I should reiterate. It’s like I’ve suddenly gotten lost with nowhere to go and nowhere to return to, and not just lost as in location. It’s also a sensory and emotional detatchment, as if everything just becomes dull and distant
I haven’t noticed any seasonal trends personally, though that could easily be because I haven’t paid attention to them.
sometimes people think they are disordered because they are just judged and made to feel guilty, “oh i like guys, something must be wrong with me!” instead of “wonderful, i like men!”
I get that feeling quite a lot. I’m not really sure what would cause something like that. I don’t think it’s really supernatural or anything like that. Personally my experience with that feeling you’ve described doesn’t have anything to do with the seasons. I sort of just have “phases” where it’s there, and phases were it’s not, if you see what I mean.