Okay, so I joined up here a long time ago and then completely forgot about it when my computer crashed and I lost my bookmarks. I also gave up trying to lucid dream around that same time, too. But recently, I had a nightmare that made me want to control my dreams again. I had a dream that I was at a bakery or something with my girlfriend, and a gunman stormed in and started shooting up the place and took a majority of the people there hostage. We waited for minutes upon minutes of pure fear, until he came over to me and my girlfriend, and shot my girlfriend in front of me, and then me. I felt myself dying right before I woke up. It was probably the most vivid dream I’ve ever had, and it was also the scariest.
The biggest problem I’ve noticed with my dreams is that they’re very based in reality, and they hardly, if ever, do anything to make me question the reality of it. Nothing grows or shifts, and no matter how odd the situation I might be in is, it’s usually something very plausible. I have no idea how to become lucid when my dreams are so close to reality. I’ve tried various techniques, but nothing has worked really. I did become lucid twice so far, once a long time ago where I was the character in the dream and not myself, and I couldn’t remember who I really was, but didn’t care. The other was much more recent, but only lasted about fifteen seconds, and when I was lucid, I couldn’t breathe and I fell back into normal dreaming.
I always figured that lucid dreaming would be hard, but never this hard.
Edit: Another thing I thought I should bring up, my dreams usually are not very vivid, and I only remember about one or two a week, which makes it that much harder. I’m guessing my first step should be to dig out my old dream journal.