Moved from Beyond. Appears to be HI/WILD
OK, I know this is really long, but if you have any will or experience interpreting spiritual phenomenological experiences/events, please read through and tell me what you can.
Last night I was going to bed and I was completely relaxed, yet aware. However for some reason although everything was asleep I couldn’t actually “fall asleep” (although I kind of was, there was no WBTB here, it was just my first sleep cycle of the night) without letting go of the awareness. So I lied there for what seemed to be three hours, but definitely was not. I began feelings like I was having an OoBE, my body felt like it was floating. It got really intense, but usually when I get to this point of an OoBE my body starts to shake up and down violently, but not this time. This time it felt like my conscious began to lift, and then all of a sudden I was unaware of my body and it was like my mind was simply floating up. I didn’t feel very dissociated with my body, it just wasn’t on my mind. As soon as I opened my third eye (which I’ve never done before so this was really weird and amazing), I saw a black dragon swirling into my vision and it looked at me and I had a conversation with it. It was evil and trying to tempt me to be on its side. I have always felt like God respected me in a different manner, just intuitively. In the past year or so I left the Catholic Church, and perhaps Christianity all together and have been working on developing my own set of religious/spiritual beliefs. I cannot remember the exact conversation but it left a lasting impression with temptations on how I should feel, rather than act. I looked down and saw an eagle form. The eagle was more of a symbol than a creature. I focused on its eye and it got bigger and bigger at which moment I looked back at the black dragon and told it firmly “No, I will not join you. I fight for the good.” He gave me a sly grin and moved to the side of my vision, allowing for another dragon, this time white, to come soaring in. The white dragon told me he was a messenger of God (which made me quickly realize that the black dragon was a messenger of Lucifer, who I still believe in), but I could not figure out whether he was native to me or actually sent from God. Some strange feeling hinted that they both belonged to, and were a part of me. The white dragon asked me what I was doing and I said I didn’t know. He asked me what I was doing with my life and I tried to explain but I realized that I am simply trying to help myself at this point in life instead of fighting for or helping a purpose or cause. The two dragons chased each other in somewhat of a battle but it ended up seeming that they couldn’t touch each other. They then came at each other head on and swirled into a yin yang symbol.
I have had an experience before where I became way too familiar with my dark side and I made sure never to let it out again. Now I’m left wondering…what is so bad about bad? What makes good so good? Am I being partial to goodness just because that is what we have been taught? The government surely enforces things upon us that are no good, and biased. Why is it hard for me to believe that the Church has possibly done the same?
I felt like this was some kind of calling. After this experience I saw a curvy tunnel (so that you [edit]cannot see the end) and it began to rush towards me. I flew into it and it launched me into the air, flying over mountains into a lucid dream. I saw for a while, although I cannot remember when it occurred chronologically (it was before the LD), me standing alone on a square plane with hell (depicted by dark swirling clouds and demons’/minions’ heads popping out and grinning, etc, below me. Above me I knew was heaven but I could not see it. All around darkness with some massive battle that I was going to play a big part of was waiting to happen.
Notice that everything before getting launched into the tunnel that shot me into a lucid dream, was played out with what seemed to by hypnagogic images that were far more vivid and tangible than regular hypnagogics.
If anyone can give me a hand with interpreting this it would be greatly appreciated. I’ve read about shamanic callings but this seems to vary much from one of those.
One odd thing I’ve also noticed is that my HI always has this olive green tint to it (although it may change, olive green remains to be the main color). I’ve always assumed it’s like that for everyone, but I’d like to get some confirmation on that. My birthday is in May, making my birth stone the emerald, which is also green. I’m just trying to tie this in however I can. I have this urge to have a spiritual journey via Etheric Projection or maybe even biolocation. I was reminded last night of a host of childhood memories that point to the fact/belief that I have a spiritual purpose far greater than I’ve ever wanted to accept.
Anyone with experience interpreting these kinds of things, please give me a hand. That black dragon at first made me for the first time feel that I was in danger while lying in bed. I didn’t get excited at all on my first OoBE’s or LD’s nor any subsequent ones.
Thanks for your time, and if you actually read the whole thing, thanks for that as well.
Edit: I forgot about this, but perhaps it ties in. The other night I walked in my house kind of late. Everyone was sleeping and I walked into my room. I was taking my sweater off and I heard a loud voice call my name. I responded…mentally, not verbally, and he asked me what I am doing here. We had a short conversation about purpose and when I asked an important question (I cannot remember what it was now) the voice did not respond.
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