Ok so last night, like most other nights, I attempted doing a WILD (I know WILD doesnt usually work so well at night, but I believe i can do it, and afterall, isnt belief what helps you become lucid too?), but this time… it went a little stranger than usual, for me at least.
Usually, I simply give up (either i cant focus, or I’ve been lying there, numb for what seems like hours, or I felt the vibrations and got excited and lost it)… I’m not sure if I’ve fallen asleep while trying it though…
Anywho… Last night, I attempted it like usual, and i paired it along with MILD, and eventually… I think i fell asleep (I also dont think i went through any of the phases before falling asleep). Next thing I know…I guess I’ve become aware, but im not dreaming or anything yet…but its as if my mind suddenly remember i was attempting WILD, and i ‘woke up’ but stayed in the exact same position (even my eyes stayed closed).
I sort of continued trying WILD, and felt times where Id get a bit dizzy…but after a few seconds, maybe a minute, I told myself, this isnt working, and i got out of the position (really numb) and tried sleeping. I also looked at the clock and noticed it was about 1 hour and a half since I went to sleep.
After that I realized… I probably had a near perfect chance! I might’ve been close to it! I dont know what told me to stop, but it wasnt logic or reason…
I think if I would have continued I couldve gone through with it, though I’m not sure since I havent successfully done WILD before.
Does it sound like it might’ve been close? The main thing I found strange was how it seemed like I fell asleep but woke up still trying WILD… i dont know… and how afterwards, I felt almost positive it couldve have worked if I continued with it.
I felt pretty stupid after I figured out what I was doing…