Okay, so I’ve a slight problem here that I don’t know how to solve, and I’d really appreciate it if you guys helped me out n.n;
I don’t have a problem with lucidity - before I even came across the concept of lucid dreaming, I did it unconsciously. I mostly realize this by signs in this dream that are unreal (for instance, I made up a new bathroom in my school the other night with a whole shelf dedicated with various fruit bowls with plastic fruit in it - of course it doesn’t exist in real life, which caused me to realize that it was a dream).
However, I’ve a few problems with controlling my dreams.
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I can’t seem to remember what I’m supposed to do once I’ve LD:ed. (My goal is to create my fic-verse and then let my subconscious do the rest so that I can gain inspiration for my fic.) I’ve a vague memory of wanting to take control, but my subconscious always throws me off by making sudden things happen so that I lose focus - like the other night, I was suddenly presented with the fact that I had to hold a speech in front of our whole school, but I didn’t have a speech. That made me focus on making a speech instead. Two nights before, I had even gone as far as to construct a door to lead to my fic-verse, but then the mafia called me and said they had captured my best friend, so I had to rescue her in the current dream-verse I was in. Then I forgot about my goal.
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If I do remember, my dream collapses the instant I try to take control. In another dream, once I was lucid, I remembered my goal and tried to build my fic verse. The buildings surfaced but all of a sudden, somebody yanked the carpet away underneath me (there wasn’t even a carpet there before) and I started to fall backward. Even though the buildings continued to rise, everything around me descended into this free-fall that made me ‘fall’ back into reality.
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I tried to WILD a few nights ago. It all went pretty well. I got into this semi-dream state (I think it’s called HI?) during which I was in a ‘portal’ of sorts. I was at a skating rink I had constructed, and I knew I wasn’t fully asleep yet. There were different mirrors around the skating rink, and I told myself they were portals into different dreams. I was with a DC who told me he was going to teach me how to control my LDs and guide me into the dream I wanted to, when all of a sudden, another DC approached me. “Crap,” he said and tried to steer me away, but she was faster. “It’s the Queen.” She walked forward to me and then, with a single push, I flew backward into a portal that’d take me back to reality and I woke up.
Anybody who knows how I should prevent this? I mean, it’s not exactly a nightmare, so it’s not like I can face it the same way I do with nightmares (I’ve seen some methods here, like going forward to embrace whatever frightens you and stuff like that…). For the most part, I even have trouble focusing on my task at hand. But what’s with my subconscious trying to stop me? And how do I stop my subconscious from stopping me??
Thanks in advance!