Hello everybody, I’m new to this forum and have a lot of question. Many of those I got answered by reading the FAQs and other ressources on the web I found. I wasn’t interested in LD nor did I know anything about it a week ago.
It all startet a few month ago. I found me in a void with nothing more than a black wafting “thingy” in front of me. I really cannot describe it. But it seemed to pulsate and change it’s size and surface. But it was more the feeling that overwhelmed me. It was the deepest fear I ever felt. It was there and nothing more. I wanted to escape, but I couldn’t 'cause it seemed to be immanent. After a few seconds I remembered, that I had seen it before. It was in my childhood, where I often have had nightmares. I recognized, that this was the nightmare. As this came clear to me I knew, this must be a dream. I decided to face this “thingy” and wasn’t afraid of it any more. Now I wanted to reach it, but it draw back. While I was thinking about how it is possible to know that I’m dreaming, the dream faded. I tried to upkeep this dream, but after some seconds I startet to feel the bed under my body and this dream ended. But I never recognized any dream with that amount of details ever before. I even felt content with me, since I fought that “nightmare”.
Two or three weeks later I found myself in an empty baths. I decided to dive and found myself diving the longest time I ever did. I wondered why I didn’t start to drown and analyzed, that I was in fact breathing. My chest expanded in regular intervallic and I felt air filling my lungs. But I didn’t feel the air going through my nose and my mouth was closed. I really enjoyed it and startet to experiment with some diving maneuvers, which are not really possible in reality. It was obvious to me, that this must be a dream. I was astonished about that and sat down on the bottom of the basin. Now I asked me why there is no pressure on my ears. While thinking about this inconsistencies I woke up.
There were two more dreams after that. One, that involved “explicit” actions and another involved flying. They all were very short and ended nearly immediately when I startet to think about the inconsistencies and identified them as dreams. In all cases I can remember the dreams as if they were real. After the last flying dream I startet to search the web on this topic and found much information on LD.
With all information I gathered I think all four dreams really were LD’s (or at least the beginning of them, what I didn’t realize since I didn’t know anything about LD, if you think I’m wrong please correct me). I now start to practice some of your advices (espacially to hold the nose, since it worked out in my underwater dream) and hope, that I can start some of the “in-LD-techniques” when I realize my next one.
But now I have a question about my “thingy” on top of this post. I read, that it might be possible to get advice from ones subconscious mind and to face ones fears. I also read, that it can be difficult and even scary. I’m very interested in “talking” to that “thingy”. Do you think it might be a good idea to focus on summoning it if I manage to stabilize my next dream? Or would that better be a long-term aim focusing on simpler things the first time? Since I managed to withstand it in my first dream I guess it won’t be a problem, or even scary. But feel free to correct me.
to this forum, (although I may be still abit new too!)
Cos definition is being concious that you are dreaming at some point in ur dream.