WILD semi-success... what a weird feeling

Quest for Lucidity
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Well I posted in another thread that I usually kind of WILD while I fall asleep, watching the dots etc… so after reading about WILD on this forum earlier this week, I decided to try to take it deeper into the sleep state, and had a partial success last night.

I was lying in bed and watching the HI as usual, and started drowsing off… so I decided to start talking to myself inside my head, and singing in my head. Just random rhymes, freestyle stuff. The cool thing I noticed when I fumbled a rhyme was that my mental voice found one on its own, and kept going… so I left it to sing in the background, and focused on the intensifying HI.

After a bit, I felt all of a sudden my body lock up, and my heart rate increased. Then I started feeling my skin start to make a shaky, tingly feeling, and that I had popped about half a boner :rofl:. My eyelids felt like they were blinking like mad, but were closed… is that what REM feels like?

Anyways, I laid in this state and noticed the HI starting to fade and to roll back from my eyes, changing from a flat screen to a 3d space. At this time I tried to visualise things like my hands, but could not make them appear. I tried to “project” my mind out of my body into this space, but that didn’t work either. I was tempted to open my eyes and hope that I didn’t open my real eyes, but didn’t want to risk it.

I found I could not let go of or ignore all the physical feelings, like the tingling and the eye twitching. It felt like they were keeping my awareness attached to my body rather than being able to fall into a dream. Are they just supposed to fade away?

Anyways, I then got a crazy surge of adrenaline that felt pretty intense, and the HI snapped back flat. I felt that the adrenaline had woken me up too much and I had fallen out of the state, and I had (did a few RCs to make sure that I hadn’t dropped into a dream). So I gave up, and just let myself fall asleep.

Fun. I was really tired in the morning though… does WILD mess up your sleep?

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It shouldn’t mess up your sleep, I believe.

But I got inspired from reading you post, the bit about when you started rapping. I don’t rap, but I do produce music. I guess I could try to make up a track in my head. I’ll try doing that tonight. And as I believe it would be an awesome track too. As you said, your mental voice started to rap away on it’s own. So I’ll give it a shoot.

Yeah, I have the same problem, the bodily sensations gets too heavy for you too ignore. And then all of a sudden, I just give up. I open my eyes. Well, I’ll try harder next time.

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Well, I’ve been trying since then but for some reason my HI is dimmer than usual… i think because I’m so tired right now, and I’m aggrevating it by trying to focus on the weak HI and ending up staying awake longer than I should, and losing sleep.

Think I’ll take a break for a few days to gain some more sleep back. After tonight. I’m going to try listening to some bwgen music to haul me into a better meditative state for HI before I go to bed tonight, and see if that will fix the dullness.

With regards to the rap - I’m not much of a rapper in real life, I’m a guitarist. well, the rap was actually more of a funk :razz: and yes, it came with instruments that started fading in after I stopped conciously doing it - I wish I could’ve remembered it in more detail, it was pretty damn cool.

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Interesting. I’ll have to try it, of course I’ll probaly use sounds or instruments instead of raping. Usually I start rambling and I find myself saying the weirdest things. I’ll try it though. Tell you tommorrow-ish

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I made it SO close to winning at WILD this time… I was in a dream and something scared me, making me feel all creepy and wake up.
As mentioned in another WILD technique, I woke up but didn’t open my eyes, relaxed and spun my mind, visualizing twisting myself through the bed and out through the floor.

It worked, really fast, and I found myself falling at a spectacular rate through a brightly colored vortex, with intense vibrations as if I was riding my motorcycle at full throttle.
Slowly the vibrations calmed and the colors faded away, leaving me in blackness. I figured I was in a blank scene in a LD, but there were little blobs, like regular HI.
I blinked and found myself opening my real eyes.

Don’t know why it resulted in waking instead of dreaming. This was in the late morning though (~9:00), so maybe I was just out of REM time… the vortex and vibrations were pretty damn cool though. Maybe I’ll do better next time.

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do you guys hear a “boooom” before entering the dream?