Whenever I try to WILD manually, I fail. I just never fall asleep etc.
But sometimes, and this is kind of a tip, whenever I snooze repeatedly (you wake up of your alarm, put it on snooze, fall asleep within 1 min, wake up after 8 min over and over), I sometimes get into a state of pre-pre-WILD (before you actually start to see/hear things). I know I will be able to WILD succesfully, and I really want to. (The tip being that snoozing repeatedly is a great way to eventually WILD).
But whenever I get the opportunity, which I personally see as a blessing afterhand, I always chicken out as I get this glitchy feeling inside my head.
Around a year ago, I experienced a pretty serious pre-WILD moment. I was paralyzed and had my eyes opened. I heard very scary, glitchy music play inside my head (sort of like a glitchy piano melody). Not only did I hear a nightmare soundtrack play inside my head, I also saw a distinct totally black and shadowy creature in front of me in my room. It was “dancing” in rhythm of the music. Whenever a note of the music was “played”, the shadowy creature “ran” towards me (although standing still). So with every note, it was doing a jerky running motion. This scared me up to the point of being afraid of something I knew was surreal and “natural”.
During this pre-WILD moment (which never turned into a LD as I actually moved/“woke” up out of pure fear), I felt a very glitchy and scratchy feeling within my body.
That is the same feeling as I now get whenever I am in a pre-pre-WILD moment. I know it’s a natural process which won’t kill me, but I still can’t relax and just let it come. I always “jerk” out of the moment by twitching my body to “wake” myself up.
Do you have any tips on how to combat this momentary fear of what I really want to experience? Thank you.