Cold Turkey Blues

These things they clear themselves up on their own.

You want to quit anything, sex, cigarettes, drinking, but you also want to keep doing it, and your body might be married to the chemical so much that sudden divorce causes terrible emotional flare ups.

Well, t hese things just happen. You all have inside you a reasoning that is stronger than any passion of the body, but you don’t really ever take the reasoning for a walk, so it is lame and emotive and crippled and has no confidence, in worst case scenario, or in best case scenario you are a master of the physical universe and have transcended all desires, congratulations either way.

But you really don’t “quit” you graduate so one day you are like “no more cigs” and however you do it, its easy enough, if you withdrawal even, you might do it cold turkey, realize that way is terrible, and enjoy gradually weaning yourself off. Whatever it is it comes with an inertia that cannot be stopped because everything inside of you knows through the intellect that it just has to go, and the intellect beats to a bloody pulp any emotive monsters that come up and try to convince it to go back to the darkside.

So when you’ve really had enough it won’t be a struggle it will be like waking from a dream and the “addiction” is over, the only complication is the physical body’s withdrawals but these will also be handled properly by the intuitive knowing that is stronger than any passion.

the mind of someone that fully overcomes a strong habit is a beautiful beautiful mind

it does not mind the suffering that starving the demons to death cuases him, but rejoices in knowing that it is being baptised through this suffering and will emerge stronger, and that the pain is only temporary

it is also respectful and reasonable about its health and will not put itself in jeapoardy for the sake of proving a point, as there are drugs (even legal ones) that can cause great peril if suddenly quit

what you have to do is take this mind for a walk

understand that when someone smokes it is as if they are a walking corpse that breathes in and out smoke, visualzie any smoker as leaving a trail of choking smoke everywhere they go, that during no time of the day do they ever breathe clean air, that their every inhalation and exhlalation is of a putrid smoke that gags them to death, and their very existence is to choke to death without ever dying

see them as horrible demons, putrid disgusting and horribly deluded, who are holding in their hands a burning hot red coal that, if only they would let it go, would be able to breathe in the most beautiful clean mountain air and free themselves from their perpetual death rattle

because if all you can see is SMOKING MAKES ME FEEL GOOD
you won’t make it to the other side you have to use your imagination

which means you have to want to

i know the truth about smoking anything, even pot, that it messes your aura up and causes harm, and knowing this, and FEELING THE ENERGY of people who smoke is enough

what is dangerous about our world is that we are perptually blasphemous, if you believe that sex or drugs are holy, then you won’t have an addiction but if you treat them like products to be consumed like a piggy wiggy then you will hurt yourself

the natives used to revere tobacco as so holy, so no wonder they didn’t have problems being addicted to it?

is it right to be that way ? you have to use your mind if you don’t use your mind it will use you and make you its biatch and push you around everywhere saying “i know you know this is wrong, BUT DO IT ANYWAY”

Hmm, I wonder…

What about this idea: a vacation-island in the middle of nowhere. Lots of stuff to do, a break from the everyday grinde, bring your family if you want, and everything. But with ONE huge difference to other similar places: No tobacco. Wonder if that would work…

eyelids, you have described perfectly how tapasya, austerities should work. it is not giving something up, it is letting it leave you. if you are a smoker and quit while you still love cigarettes, your whole existence becomes about not smoking. this is the fundamental problem with the NA/AA rehab system. sure, you quit using drugs, but now rather than your life being about getting the drugs it is about staying away from the drugs, and it is still controlling your life! you have progressed no where, you’ve just moved to a slightly different oppression.

you’ve got to let things just
…fall
…away

not sure if it was mentioned, but just remembered reading that drinking a TON of water can help you quit. as in, 10 eight ounce glasses a day. Dunno bout the reliability of digg, but worth a try.

Smoking is a physical and mental addiction so you should do as my papa did and basically pretend to smoke by sucking on a little straw sounds silly but he said it helped a lot. :wink:

about the island in the middle of nowhere… I did try it (not on purpouse)… went there for working, thought it would have been easy to get some cigarettes and discovered it wasn’t… 3 days later I had no cigarettes so I thought it was the best occasion i could have for quitting and went on almost fine for the 17 days following… but as soon as i sat my foot on the coast again I bought cigarettes again like those days never passed

right

i wanted to fast and so i left my home and wandered around the nearby college campus and stayed overnight with my friends, i didn’t eat for 2 days and it was fine

then my friend said we should get some icecream, so i did

wasn’t a great decision lol

now try to go 2 days without eating at home? geeze its harder there’s all that food you know!

you have to be honest and get the cognitive dissonance out

the rational reasoning mind is the only thing that can overcome any-thing and IT has to WANT to and understand clearly the TRUTH lest it is more true that its GOOD to smoke than it isn’t

which is your decision and so you have cognitive dissonance

smoking is good but it isn’t

this has to be cleared up so you need to think about it especially while sleeping

to do that you just talk to yourself in your mind deliberately, like how you write a message board post

if i just sit here and don’t talk to myself i don’t type anything
lalalalala or i type my dreams like random billowed horseshoes create capricorned vengeance upon the feeble minded womenly warriors who within tangents of apricorn symmetry resemble oprah winfrey

so

then eventually i’d stop doing that and get lost in my fantasies about things i shouldn’t think about

of course writing IS MEDITATION so if you write an insane (or sane) coherent and legible (or poetic right brained) expression of what exactly it is you are thinking, and doing, then you will understand all your mind because the subconscious will shine th rough and explain why it wants to smoke and you can revise what you have written and fix it all

SO WRITE