All right, I just realised how many times I’ve actually mentioned this in my other posts, and thought I may as well make a topic for it.
When I was younger, the only reason I wanted to learn to be lucid in dreams was for escapism, I didn’t much care for this world, everyday the same boring experience, I looked around and saw nothing but cruelty and hopelessness, I wanted to LD during the night, as a means to keep me sane, to escape into my own world for a few hours each night so that I could more easily face the one I saw every morning.
I’m not really sure what brought about the change, maybe it was just inevitable maturity that came with being here for a whole 15 years, I don’t know… But what I do know is that I no longer count my LD’s prior to that enlightenment as true LD’s as they were nothing more than a way for me to escape my reality. They didn’t help me improve my waking life in any way at all, to the contrary, they actually further distanced me from it and made things worse. I eventually relised this and stopped LDing/dreaming all together and worked to improve my waking life, but as time went on, I began to crave the dream world again, only this time, for a very different reason, which I promise I’m getting to. But before I do, I urge all the young dreamers on this forum who may or may not be going down the same path as I was/am, reevaluate your reasons for dreaming. LDing is a wonderful thing that can really improve your life, but used incorrectly or for the wrong reasons and it can make what looks bad now, a whole lot worse. LDing can become a terribly addicting drug if you use it improperly, and like any drug, it will send your life into a spiraling chaos.
So, with that ugly mess out of the way, the true topic is…
“What am I?” “Who am I?” “Why do I exist?”
Such questions have been asked by man since the beginning of time, I believe LDing holds the answer to these questions and since at this point I’ve essentially become a Lucid Vegetable, I want you to help me answer them.
I believe that through LDing, it is possible to locate the area of your SC that houses your memories and actually be able to look inside and see all of your memories going back all the way to your birth, (or maybe even further?) I believe that by doing this, you can learn everything there is to know about yourself and finally be able to answer the question of who you really are.
I would very much appreciate it if anyone who reads this topic and happens to be currently active within the dream world, would try this and post how you did it, what you saw, what you learned (hopefully something), and your opinion of whether or not it’s worth it.
Thank you in advance, and happy hunting!
TO MODS: I wasn’t certain if this should go in the Lab area or here, but I ended up choosing the General Lucidness forum because of the little life story at the beginning, but I’m still not certain… Do what you will with it.