i try to meditate down into paralysis…
i could do it if i could stay focused
what i do is i lay down and i induce falling asleep sensations… i don’t want to make this description really long… but basically i do breath awareness, and i take the first odd thought to enter my head and repeat it
it will most likely be nonsensical and unconscious in nature… like “wob ru” or something… it follows the breath and attempts to narrate it with a sound/though … as the mind doesn’t like to stay quiet… i’ve found any repetetive action i do generates a sot of automatic semiconscious mantra that doesn’t make much sense to serve as a mental voice in my head to keep it busy
so anyway i take that… i voluntarily repeat it over and over… and i monitor my mind… i take the next thought that grabs my attention and now i switch to repeating it
it brings about a sort of cascading waterfall effect in the mind… and you go fairly deeply into near sleep… eventually you JOLT “awake” back to normal thinking… ala a myoclonic jerk…
now if you do th is enough sometimes when you jolt out, you feel a fading rush of paralysis…
what I theorize this is is delayed sensory input… you are very much dissociated while this goes on… so you actually were paralyzed, but the sensory input wasn’t reaching you becuase you were honed in on the wandering thought process…
so when you suddenly jolt back into present thought the paralysis information FINALLY reaches YOU and you feel it very briefly as a rushing sensation, yet you know it is already gone.
That’s as far as I can get… I wish I could stay in the wandering state for a long long long time… or that I could just spark into focus and awareness while remaining in this sort of “trance” so that I could do an OBE or a LD.
But I can’t… becuase it’s just like going to sleep… just forced to happen fairly quickly.
(takes me about 15 minutes to get there usually)
I tried it in a chair and much the same happened… I’ve yet to try it sitting on the floor with my back super straight… doing that would be really uncomfortable for me though… especially since i am prone to chronic back pain.
But that’s what I do… it isn’t successful yet, and no matter how hard I fight while in the borderline about to drift out of it state, I can’t keep myself consciously aware when I go back in.