My general experience with trying to do Lucid dreams

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I read your post a little earlier in the week and I remember I had a lot to comment on, but @Marvin really touched on just about everything (and more) that I had to say

@Almo

First, I want to communicate with my subconscious, I heard it can be very therapeutic and I want to help myself change some bit of my personality I find imperfect.

I find your motivations to LD quite compelling and it’s so good to have a strong motivation, it will help you a lot.
You will find everyone has a different philosophy on dreams and you may or may not agree with my perspective, but I thought I might share a little bit of my philosophy if it could possibly help you. It currently sounds like you don’t find your non lucid dreams very interesting or engaging? I would encourage you to challenge that perspective.
One of your goals is to communicate with your subconscious. Have you considered that your subconscious is already trying to communicate with you, perhaps through your non-lucid dreams? Communication is a two way street and starting by trying to pick up on the messages your subconscious may already be sending to you is a great place to start. (I suppose I’m just suggesting dream interpretation, really haha)

As a beginner I was only interested in my lucid dreams and as such I only really put effort into my journal when I had a lucid dream. It wasn’t until I concluded for myself that my subconscious sent me messages on a nightly basis (through non lucid dreams) that I really actually started to care about all my dreams, and the change in perspective was a major turning point for me as a dreamer. I started keeping my journal better (because I wanted to interpret my dreams for what my subconscious was saying), and having non-lucid dreams didn’t feel like defeat any more.

In summery, giving your non-lucid dreams more value and attention may make the process more rewarding and engaging as you work towards lucidity.

@Marvin

lucid dreaming is not a battle of your conscious vs. your subconscious, but a reconciliation of them both.

Put so eloquently! I wish someone had suggested this to me when I was a beginner.

@Almo

Second, I want to become the character I create. I create a lot of OCs with some kind of powers that are really close to me, I could even say they are me. I incorporate them into stories I write, but I think that my vision of them is “incomplete” because I don’t know what I feel when using the powers my OCs have (which is normal, because it’s real life dammit). And I feel like I must really put myself in their place to really know what they can feel like when I put them in different situation. Also, I just want to have fun with my powers, so why not?
And thirdly, I just want to let my imagination run wild with environments and situations. I’ve heard that lucid dream can boost your imagination and I totally want to do that, explore environment or species I’ve never thougt they existed, travel through a lot of locations with my (imaginary) friends. And then, when I wake up, get something out of it, new sights to exploit and have a story to tell to my (irl) friends.

You sound like quite the creative and imaginative type. If you enjoy OCs, have you ever considered giving CALD a shot? It’s a method you could do in combination with MILD; you could make a mantra like “When I am dreaming, X (character) will tell me I’m dreaming” or something like that.