This is my first post on this forum, but I’ve been hanging around here and the site for some time now.
I wanted to talk about my personal experiences with WILDs, and ask you what I’m doing wrong, or if you have any tips for me
So I have read a series of guides about how to do WILDs, and it feels like I’m slowly getting there. But unfortunately there are still some major obstacles I face almost every time I try.
Here is a short description of how most of my attempts go:
I lie down in my bed, on my back, and stop moving - trying to relax. This mostly goes fine and I can soon feel the sleep paralysis coming. (This numbness and tingling spreading over you body, I think that must be it?)
As the feelings get more intense, I get slightly excited, which sometimes disturbs the process…
A big problem that occurs in the early stages is also that I get annoying “itches” and feelings on different parts of my body, for example on one of my hands. This is often like feeling my pulse pound in the region, and it’s really annoying. On one day it is bearable and goes away again after some time, the other day it ruins the whole attempt.
There are also various other things, at least one of them occuring every attempt, which make me want to move and “fix” them. One of them would be having to swallow, or to scratch me on the nose… but I know that this usually destroys the attempt
Mostly I can get around those first annoyances (they almost always aren’t the real problem), and enter a deeper sleep paralysis. Then, something really strange happens:
As the SP gets deeper, I don’t see any hypnagogic images at all. However I start to feel as if I’m twisting around slowly and steadily, in varying directions. I get extremely excited by this. It is so exciting that I get, even when trying desperately to avoid it, adrenaline rushes and my heart starts to pound uncontrollably fast. On some days, this is so bad that it ruins the whole attempt.
If it doesn’t however, the feelings get even more intense: Suddenly, it seems as if I was dragged into an endlessly large, black space. Everything starts twisting even more, and now it feels as if my whole body was changing length and height periodically. I start falling deeper and deeper into this darkness. This darkness feels like when you close your eyes in a dark room, but just so much bigger. It is as if it would completely surround me! I would describe it as an absolutely amazing experience.
This goes on for a few minutes I guess, and then stops. At that point I feel as if I was about 70% disconnected from my body.
Now here is my main problem: I wasn’t able to get further from this point!
All of my previous attempts ended in me giving up, rolling over to the side and ultimately sleeping in. Sometimes this is because I was too excited, or because I feel physically uncomfortable.At the same time I start feeling a very strong urge to move. Then I just don’t see the point in continueing, because I think that I can’t get any further, and give up. On the next day I usually regret doing so.
I often read that the main difficulty most people have with WILDs is that they lose focus and slip into unconciousness. I have the opposite problem apparently, as I’m just overly excited and when I get the feeling that the attempt is failing, I usually give up and go to sleep.
So these are my previous experiences I gathered from 4-6 WILD attempts. Now, I wanted to ask you some more concrete questions:
After having read the ending part of my descriptions, how far do you think have I come to the target of having a fully asleep body and entering a dream?
What do I need to do to “finish” the attempt, when it seems to have stalled?
Are these sensations of twisting around and mainly the spreading blackness and emptyness unique to me, or are they common and described somewhere?
Where did the hypnagogic images stay?
Do you have particular tips for me about what I have to do to solve the problems which keep me from succeeding in having my first WILD?
I really hope that some of you might be able to help me with my problems
Thanks for reading and best regards,