I’m new to this forum but have been part of another popular LDing forum the past week, but I’m trying to not limit myself to one community. Theres a lot to offer here too.
The thing is, I’ve always been in the habit of meditating. I’m fully awake and aware while meditating, but I’m often at a deep level of relaxation/concentration/awareness that falling asleep isn’t an issue. Unfortunately, I’ve built the habit of keeping myself awake in deep relaxation(meditation), rather then consciously falling asleep(lucid dreaming). I’m currently learning how to do the latter.
I think I seriously just spent an hour trying to enter sleep paralysis. It was like 2 AM before I got to sleep though, so maybe all I need is some good rest? I did a Wake Back to Bed of like 4hours 30 mins, sipped some water, went to bathroom, then back to the bed. I went over relaxation techniques first to get myself relaxed. I then spent the next 30mins to an hour just laying, breathing, getting more and more relaxed, feeling my body get heavier and heavier, started seeing flashes of light in my visual perception and mini dream like images/scenes(hypnog. images probably?), but I still felt no physical sensations that lead to sleep paralysis.
Upon finally decided to call it a night, I paid particular attention to how my body felt upon shifting positions. When I moved my body I could tell it felt locked into its position, weighed down, relaxed, and constricted, so I needed to do a big stretch. It feels like my body was pretty close to sleep paralysis because initially it took more effort then normal to switch positions and I felt the above, but it was not FULL sleep paralysis.
You see as a kid I would wake up still in sleep paralysis stage sometimes, so I KNOW what it feels like to be in it fully, you can’t move, you can’t scream/yell…etc. However, I’ve never felt the in between stages of sleep paralysis, so I’m in a situation where I’m kinda sorta guessing what I should be feeling.
I’ve just got to do some more testing and figure out if its a matter of not being “disconnected” from my mind enough, or what?
I would love some insight on this.
As for now, the only thing I can really do is “keep doing it”. Sure this was only my 3rd attempt and I don’t really have room to complain, but I feel since I’ve been meditating since a kid it really helps with relaxation and everything. In reality, all I need to do, is just do it, and just keep doing it, and do it some more. It’ll happen eventually. However, I believe with a better understanding I will be able to WILD sooner, rather then later. That’s what I would love for this post to accomplish.
Thanks for your time