In early 1990’s I got my first lucid dreams thanks to a dream guide from P Tholey & K. Utrecht where I accidentally stumbled upon. It took about three weeks practicing until I succeeded and during the next months I practiced heavily with a dream journal, reality checks and other techniques explained in the dream guide. Every now and then I got amazing dream experiences from it. But it took a lot of efforts considering the occasional LD I got and eventually I gave up.
Around 1998 I decided to give lucid dreaming a new try as internet was coming up and there was a lot of information and new methods and insights available on the web, including this website. I got my occasional lucid dream again, but once more the results were very poor considering the time and energy I invested into it. None the less some dreams were really great. After two years I gave up on it again.
In 2007 I started exotic gardening as hobby and it didn’t take long before I found information about a strange plant called Calea Zacatechichi which improves dream recall and makes dreams much more vivid. I ordered a cutting via e-bay and started to grow it in my greenhouse along with other exiting plant species.Shortly after I could harvest the first leaves from the dream herb. The impact on my dreams was astounding: they were extremely vivid and detailled and I could remember 4 or 5 dreams each night where it was hardly one before or even nothing when I didn’t maintain my dream journal. Along with the herb treatment I decided to pick lucid dreaming again and got another bunch of great experiences. But the herb grew slow and after a while I got disappointed and gave up lucid dreaming… again
In 2013 we had a great summer and the Calea plants which were still alive grew very fast and I even managed to propagate them so I had leaves in abundance and I could enhance my dreamlife whenever I wanted. Once again I picked up lucid dreaming but because I was tired from all those time consuming RC’s and other techniques I decided to stick to one very simple RC: just counting my fingers every now and then, trying to do it whenever something unusual happens and every now and then I took Calea leaves so I didn’t need to keep a dream journal anymore to keep my dream recall alive.
The results were promising: in september I got a LD every two weeks, in october every 10 days, in november weekly and in december about once every 4 days. But I noticed something strange: sometimes there wasn’t any LD for two or three weeks and then I suddenly had four LD’s in one night and then again not a single LD for two weeks. However if I calculated the averages I found that my LD frequency was still increasing and certainly during the second half of december I had amazing LDs which lasted up to two hours. I also got the most beautiful dream in my lifetime where I could take over control of a jubo jet, take off in my street and fly above my hometown.
But since christmas my LD’s are suddenly getting scarser and scarser. Nothing changed on my habits, I still take Calea regularly, do the finger test often and have a good to very good dream recall. I tried to get involved more by writing on this forum (the Dutch version) but nothing changed and my ability to LD kept getting worser and worser. Then I moved on to the English forums (the Dutch ones are not very active) and started reading while I worked out a LD game (see quest suggestions) hoping that thinking, writing and reading on the forum would help, but still nothing at all and there are no LD’s anymore.
Does anyone have an idea what’s going wrong here? Looks like some sort of imunity agains LD building up or maybe my subconcious mind has developed a way to keep me from lucid dreaming? Are there people with similar experiences?
Sorry if this story is too long, don’t even know if I should post it under the introductions topic or not, but I give it a try and post it here