Guys i dont know what to say as i’ve just spent hours explaining whats going on with me to my Greek Pagan friend here in Scotland.
There’s too much going on i need someone with experience here to ask me the right questions. I have the answers to whatever it is apparently…
I’m just finding out all the things that have been happening to me over the years are actually not a mental health issue its more than that. I’ve have LD yes but thats not the point i’m after… i keep finding too many things all joining together
Like i’ve had issues with mental health for years, hid away with alcohol… anyway I’ve recently started listening to Juice WRLD… im a metal head so that says a lot. But he reminded me of me… then i find out his new album comes out on my birthday 9th Dec. He died 8th Dec. i know thats nothing but right now my brains going everywhere after explaining this all to my Pagan buddy… he told me to just relax but i need more advice than that from our community.
I have had premonitions since i was a young child. Like i have a dream… dont even take it in really then BOOM! Im sittin 4 years later and go… i remember this EXACT image and whats just been said … its not deja vu its a lot more vivid than that.
I journal a lot i have a Penzu account where i just write my dreams down and they are gettin more Lucid recently. and from my own personal experience when this happens something drastic happens in my life. last time i went to prison for trying to set myself on fire once day when i drank a bottle of vodka in a homeless unit alone … scared.
But now i dont know what it is… im afraid it may be … bad
Ive been told im entering the 5th dimension… silly things like seein 11:11 or 00:00 or 22:22 … that one and the dreams spurring back up aswell as this Tinitus ringing in my ear has got SO intense over the last month to the point its drowning out when people knock on my door… all i hear every second of everyday is the high pitch frequency.
please if anyone can like ask me questions or tell me something i need something… if im entering the 5th dimension that means im gonna die. I have 2 beautiful kids i aint seen in 5 years i dont want to just up n die on them i wanna have time to control my ‘skills’ or whatever you want to call it…
Chris x