I don’t know whether this should be in the ‘journal’ section or not, but I just wanted to share this with you guys - it’s a real success story.
So the last few months have been hard. My best friend died, which meant my previous exams went terrible, which meant school got difficult. I spent my days on the internet, and I could only have fun with friends if I got drunk. I felt myself turning into a mindless zombie.
So next week my final examinations will start, but my mind was all clouded and I couldn’t concentrate. I tried to pick op LD’ing, but did not succeed.
Last night it all became too much. I went to bed, started crying and crying and couldn’t see how I would survive the coming weeks. My last weeks at school were supposed to be fun, but now they turned out to be terrible. I literally cried myself to sleep.
And then I suddenly found myself in a lucid dream. There was no “click”, the dream was lucid from the start. The sky was yellow-green-ish, it rained softly and I saw stars even though it was quite light. There were green, purple and yellow fields, and a river. It was all really beautiful.
I knew there was someone next to me. When I saw this man, it immediately felt right - like he was some kind of father figure to me (I never really had a bond with my father, so it felt like I could “fill in a gap in my life.”) I told him my mind felt stuck, that there was just none of all the creativity and spirit I had before, left.
He took my hand and said: “Look around you. I did not make all this - you did.”
It was indeed beautiful, but I said: “But none of this is real. This is not my life. You are not even real. This is all a dream.” And he replied: “And like all dreams, all of this was created by your mind. And you did not create darkness, you created beauty. Your mind is not stuck, your spirit is still there. You just had to open up again, to see the things around you again.”
We sat down, saying nothing. I fell “asleep” in his arms - or at least watched the sky turn darker and the stars fading, and the dream disappeared slowly and I found myself in bed.
Now this might sound unbelievable, or weird, or corny, or stupid, or pathetic. But when I woke up, I felt better than I had felt in weeks. My concentration is getting back, and it seems as though the world is more ‘real’, more colourful and vivid - like a lucid dream.
Lucid dreaming helped me get on track again. I feel way more confident about the finals ahead of me.
So thank you, LD4All, because without this wonderful site on which I do not often post, but which I do read a lot on, I would never have gotten this amazing experience that I will probably remember for a long time. My mind keeps surprising me.
also, sorry for any mistakes in English grammar. It’s not my first language.