anybody know what this is?

the Stuff Dreams are made of...
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i was just thinking back to when i was a we lad.

7-13ish

i would have the most bizarre or disturbing dreams. i remember waking up constantly during the night and being awake of maybe…7 dreams a night with almost perfect recall…i remember my eye lids in automatic mode closing… and me thinking “dammit. i didnt mean to stay this still now im going to sleep.” and trying to fight it… i could never reopen but i could keep them half open for as long as i wanted.

what is this? i remember when i gave up and closed my eyes i was in first person in an endless black limbo… i hated this. it was boring and i seemed trapped. i eventually created a tech for waking myself up. count to 10 hold a deep breathe then do a jump n jack and my body would do it in waking life. (this has gotten me out of tons of boring dreams and nightmares.)

i remember back then being fully aware i was dreaming 9/10 dreams. but never having control.

now i cant do any of this.

i dont know i just want feedback
opinion
anything.

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I think this would be non REM sleep, so there would be no images etc.

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how did i even manage to do that =\

is that normal…

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I wouldn’t be able to give you much advice, because my situation is the opposite of yours - I can control my dreams with no problem, but am almost never lucid. I can’t help you with being lucid, but I might be able to help you with control, if there’s anything specific you want to know.

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my biggest problem now is that it takes so long for me to go to sleep…that if i try wild or mild it takes me an hour to get to sleep or longer. usually doesnt work and then gives me a weird sleep rotation for the night.

getting consistent lucid dreams is tough for me

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getting any LD’s is tough for me. man! i can’t help you but i posted here cuz i read what you said… sorry am no help—