A couple of times I’ve felt extremely frustrated with myself for narrow thinking during lucid dreams. All those times I felt like I needed to share my stupidity based frustration but I hadn’t yet found a thread to do so. That’s why I’m starting this one.
I’m sure everyone has felt like an idiot before for making bad choices and being indifferent during a LD. Anyone ever wanted to slap themselves upon waking up and realizing you’ve been an idiot for messing up your so belonged LD?
Just last night after achieving lucidity I flew around for a bit (and messing with wings for a bigger bit) when I saw a horse and thought of riding it. When I got closer it turned out it was a female centaur. I positioned myself on her back when I said I wanted to go for a ride. To my surprise she said she wasn’t going to ride me anywhere since she was getting ready for a boxing match but if I wanted I could watch the game (while sitting on her back!). Sadly I was so focussed on going for a ride that I felt indifferent to her upcoming boxing match. This ‘oh nevermind, this isn’t working out for me…whatever’ feeling got into me and that’s what made me get kicked out of lucidity. When I woke up I felt so so so stupid. I could have been at a centaur boxing match and I chose not to care?! I’m such an idiot!!!
I have plenty of that kind of moments. It’s bad when you lose lucidity because of that but sometimes is actually good because from that point something interesting might happened.
All that is caused because our lucidity level is not high enough to control that. From what I’ve read sometimes full lucidity but I mean FULL lucidity isn’t good. When one has full lucidity dream lose its magic. You control everything not only on what your focused and there is no sudden and unexpected things…
So I think that it’s good not always having a full lucidity, but a little bit higher to prevent this stupid conclusions of ours, sure we could use that!
Once I decided to go flying on the golf course by my house. There was a large pheasant sitting in a tree in the woods. I told it to come to me. It flew away. I demanded it to come back, and it did not… So I went back to flying. I was so upset about the stupid pheasant that I soon lost lucidity because I forgot I was dreaming.
That’s normal, I also have those moments. Our brain works differently during dreams, different parts of it are active, than in waking life. This is what affects your thinking.
Narrow mindedness is one of the reasons I keep a goal journal, and with my majority of low lucids, it’s kinda common for me. I find that if I don’t have a strong goal, I tend to devolve to going along with the dream or going after a usual activity. I find my goal journal does help a lot, especially when I really want to complete my goal.
I used to have goals, but I found that it results in a lot of dissapointement when it doesn’t work out like I planned… I guess a goal journal may help a little though, since it’s better to have some direction than just see what comes up when I’m already halfway through the LD.
Yeah, I do often find that if I have a goal, I’ve already visualized it turning out a certain way, then in the dream, I try to accomplish it one way, and if it fails, I get frustrated and keep trying and keep failing. I often look back at my FLDs for useful ways to do things. Some LDs I’ve even done things a certain way without knowing why, and they worked (or almost did). I asked a DC in an LD once how to summon someone, and she gave me a flashlight, we went out in the rain, and I shone the flashlight into the bowl. The person started appearing in the raindrops above it. I’ve done successful summoning in my FLDs too, so I usually intend to remember those types of things in my next LD that might involve something like that.
Also, for me, I usually am not too interested in something unless I want to do it and have some sort of goal. That’s probably another reason why I like my goal journal.
So I went back to flying. I was so upset about the stupid pheasant that I soon lost lucidity because I forgot I was dreaming.