Black Box Nightmares

the Stuff Dreams are made of...
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My mind can’t handle stagnation. It starts to dig up nightmares that got stored away, stuff that shoulf never, ever, be opened. These nearly made me need to take the memories out manually today. These are not normal nightmares, my fear is spiders but these aren’t about that. They’re worse.
I try to visualize them leaving but it’s not enough. I need a stimulator, something pernament that will seal off these terrible black box nightmares. The feeling is as if there’s a mind slug in your brain that is trying to get to your center. It gets worse as it gets closer. Soon enough, you don’t think straight, you don’t think at all because you’re not even sure that you can put your mess of a mind back together.

I can’t lucid dream because it just sits there, waiting to feast upon the dream, destroy it and substitue it’s own. My mind is breaking down from this stress, only temporary way i’ve been holding it back is now not working.

Any suggestions?

I don’t know it it’s any importance but the time was 11:17PM when I started to write this. I’m not sure if there’s a connection, if it’s my salvation or my tragedy.

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I’m no psychologist, but I’ve heard a lot that repression and denial is a bad thing. Sealing it off will never succeed because it’s already a part of you. The trick is to process it. Of course, if you feel a psychotic break is imminent, then I take it you don’t feel you have a healthy enough ego to go through this process. Or, you might surprise yourself with how resilient you really are: dare the slug to do its worst, and that may be the only way to find the purest part of you that it just can’t reach.

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I usually don’t have nightmares that are bad enough to make me want to forget them forever, but I have dreams I don’t think are worth remembering. If I’m not interested in having DR for the day because I don’t have time or I’m busy and have to get going quickly, I know that I want to forget my dreams, and it happens except for maybe one small idea. Maybe you could possibly try sending the message to your subconscious that the nightmares are simply not worth remembering/having.

Normally I don’t look at my dreams this way, but maybe your subconscious could be trying to point something out in your RL that desperately needs taken care of. I myself, when I met my SC the first two times, believe that what he said, though he did most of the talking, was to make a point to me. It wasn’t nearly as extreme as your dreams, but if you believe your dreams can mean something, then possibly resolving WL issues may help. I’ve also heard a few stories from a few people on here of how they finally faced their nightmares and maybe gave the offending DC a hug, and the thing causing the nightmare turned into something else, peacefully, and the nightmares would go away.

Of course, if things continue as they are no matter what you try, I personally think getting a bit of counseling could help as well. Nothing wrong with going for professional help, and they’re trained to help such issues. Dreams, sleep cycles, etc. are all in their learning as well. (I wish that section in my psychology class would have been longer… :crying: ) As EllyEve said, it’s not good to bottle things up. When I went to counseling, my counselor told me the same. It’s like turning a cup upside down and trying to push it down in a bowl of water. There’s air trapped underneath, and the cup wants to bob up. Sure, when you’re holding the cup down, it’s not going to be a problem. But if you let go, it’s going to bob up again, and if you keep adding more air in the cup to be held down, it’s going to be harder to keep down. (I’m not sure that’s the exact analogy she was using, but I think you get the idea…) If you keep repressing nightmares, when another one shows up, any one of those could trigger the rest to come rushing back. It’s best to deal with it somehow.

Sorry to hear about the nightmares… It’s never pleasant to deal with issues like that. I’ve had nightmares add to WL paranoia, and that’s not fun. I wish you luck with dealing with the nightmares. :hugs:

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I can’t agree with it ever , because it makes things ridiculous twitching that couls scare anyone who got near Dissapear… Gosh darn!!! I can’t deal with it, I can’t face it or it just exposes me to the worst of it! Not any magician act but… here’s examples… further twitching Phineas and Furb, Get smart the show, star trek the recent movie, x-men 3 the last stand… It scares me, it’s terrible. I can never get over it. The only reason i’m posting this is because it attacked my house! in a dream of course, but it’s in my comfort zone. I’ve imagining ways the objects come back but, it just re-writes those memories faster than I can make them. I can never be friends with it, it should be destroyed! The gun turned around! Never physically to myself, that’s stupid, but some way to remove it!

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Well, I really don’t know what to say… I say maybe your SC is trying to point something out desperately would be my guess if the same thing were happening to me… Even if I couldn’t ask in-dream, I’d be examining my life and issues and seeing if something might be correlated there. I’ve been able to tell that my WL affects my dreams in different ways. If I’m going through life unaware, I’m unaware in my dreams. Issues seep through into my dreams too. I would guess that possibly something in WL is troubling you, but I don’t know what going on with your WL, and I won’t ask. I’d be happy to talk privately, but I understand if you don’t think that’s the issue. Maybe a bit of counseling would help if it’s really getting bad? Otherwise, I really don’t know how to help…

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I think i actually encountered something similar to the slug you describe!

In my case, i was having a nightmare, it was a new one, tailored to myself at the time (utilizing characters i’ve only known a few days). I knew it was a nightmare, but i lacked the strength to break it. Finally, as it went on longer than most and more horrific, i’ve had enough and removed myself from it.
Immediately i found myself in a black plane, perhaps outer space (absence of stars or other corporeal objects) with a behemothian monster, only a part of it visible, in front of me. A great eye staring at me, yet without thoughts or sentience. I queried it several times, no response, other than to continue stretch it’s tendrils of nightmare toward me. Before i distanced myself from the nightmare, i think i must’ve been covered head to toe in the black plane in them. After a while when i realized i can’t accomplish anything, i exited that plane as well and woke up.

It’d use any environment, any platform you know, perverting and twisting it until it’s a horrendous parody of what you normally think of it. I still think of it in third person. I realize it’s somewhat unbelievable that it’s really a foreign entity and not in my head, but what the hell. It is so other to myself that i prefer to think of it that way.

What i think is important is to realize that you can beat it’s nightmares. No matter how it corrupts your dreams, eventually you will have the power to exit the nightmare. To refuse to participate in it’s twisted weaving. Knowing that, believing that, it deals with it. I haven’t seen its nightmare in years, despite seldom still meeting the creature.
Funnily enough, i did no “negotiations” or talks getting to know it and all that colorful ribbon wrapped deals to resolve the issue. I somehow think it wouldn’t have worked, it didn’t seem capable of anything but singleminded determined crawl of nightmares.

The advice above probably didn’t help much, you can’t just apply it to yourself and deal with your slug the next night. But i think it should be a comfort that eventually, you’ll be pushed far enough and you’ll refuse to yield any more ground. And that’s when you “win”. It’s inevitable, somenight it’ll happen.
The next time you have a slug nightmare, try to remember that the worse it is, the closer you are to beating it :wink: