Been trying to keep a DJ next to my bed. When i wake up i jot down what i can before going back to sleep. I’m afraid to stay up to long because it’s harder to get back to sleep, so i just jot down a few points. Looking at them later, amounts to gibberish.
Anyway, last night, i wrote down the following gibberish:
servers, money, theirs and my way, wants things set up properly, room, two guys, fixing errors?
Well, it almost makes sense, can’t remember what it was about though.
Moving along, after hitting the head i went back to sleep with specific intent to have an LD and find a person behind a door. I ended up dreaming about intending to dream about it. That is, i started to imagine the story unfold before i went to sleep, which was much more vivid then it should have been. Then, in my dream i fell asleep and started having an LD. Here’s the entry:
In dream realized i must be dreaming, started to wake up, fell backwards/arms twirled to go back, felt the SP, excited, calmed down before wake up, lorphe {?] as excitement was waking me up. wished for door to find objective, got three doors, made assertion complete, was losing lucidity, trying to get it back caused wakeup, happy, not excited.
The “happy, not excited” was how i felt when i really woke up.
This dream i mostly remember. I figured i had to imagine what i wanted before i went to sleep, so i imagined going into a building (up some stairs) and finding the room in an appropriate location, this was quite vivid, but i thought i was awake and going to sleep so this all made sense. When i started to wake up, i used the fall back and felt SP inside the dream, really strange, and came up to the three doors, the doors open on the left inwards, which made no sense to me because the person inside (the obviously small room) would be crushed. So, i had the doors open on the right, outward, by focusing on the door. The focusing was too intense and made me start losing lucidity in my dream’s dream.
I tried again but went down into a cave instead of up, and started to psychoanalyze myself for picking down or up, as i had just read Jung’s essay on the spirit in fairytale, where he described a particular story in detail with the swine herdsman and world tree, princess, anima, and all that other good stuff. Considering i was doing all this in a dream… is just strange.
At some other point in the dream i imagined i was falling asleep (but not asleep yet) thinking of a hooded, masked figure i didn’t like, so i waved my hand to make him go away, and asserted my power over my imagination. I think it worked mildly, but there was a scene change anyway.
When i finally woke up and realized the entire episode was a dream, i felt happy, just not excited.
Was that a lucid dream?
