I’d like to start with the fact that I started collecting dreams in June and by now i achieved quite a bunch of LD’s; i have a positive attitude torwards them, and i feel great and grateful everytime i have one; i’m actively practicing Lucid Living and i feel really happy about it, gaining more understanding by the day i practice it (or so i figure), but that’s not what i want to talk about.
The real problem is that, despite all my efforts, i never, EVER, and i mean ever, got lucid from a dreamsign i made up by observing patterns in my dreams, and that for a simple reason: if i were to remember RC’ing the dreamsign, it would never, ever spawn again in my dreams.
The very first times i got lucid, either it was by overload (thinking so much about LD’s during the day the realization i was dreaming just dawned onto me), or by common dreamsigns (flying, being unable to run fast), that is, some that i didn’t think up the previous days. The next times, it was either WILD’s (unintentional ones, at that) or the habit to recognize generic oddities, like ridiculous events/strange dialogues etc. (again, those i didn’t think about before dreaming them) i got into.
As the manual instructed, I started classifying more and more dreamsigns, adding them to the stack: running and not moving, driving, technological malfunctions, increased abilities of any kind, the cats i have back in my parents’ home, Capitain Falcon, and a whole bunch of others. To this day I RC to most of them (by increasing my awareness, mostly), but since the day i classified any one of them, that one has never returned.
Here’s the most striking example: once i had a week or so of dreams in which an old friend of mine, which i didn’t see anymore, was involved, and i thought of a surefire process to trigger my lucidity: i would pretend they owed me money, a different sum for each one of them (and i’m pretty good at remembering this kind of stuff), and in addiction i would RC when asking them about it. The very day i built this tech up, in the first dream of the night, my own SC appeared to me (for the first time!), in blank space, telling me these words: “It doesn’t work that way.”, to which i replied a stunned “Huh.”, and that was the end of it. I figured he was talking about the money thing (and during that dream i knew for sure he was), but only recently i realized the subject was quite a bigger thing.
Dreamsigns i collected occasionally showed up later, but at a much sparser rate, and only when i didn’t remember them as dreamsigns and thus totally forgot to RC.
Even the events i did occasionally become lucid to, such as talking about school or my favourite videogame (SSBM), disappeared by the time i got lucid to them once, occasionally twice.
I really don’t know what to say; perhaps someone has had the same problem among this community? Some can explain (at least partially) this behavior of my dreams? I’m, for once, totally clueless about how to interpret this. Since i can achieve lucidity without them, i guess it’s not my conscious mind blocking them or anything, bacause it’s not a problem that vital to my success.
On a side note: i also never (ever, really) dream something related to the day that just passed; had i done something exiting during the day, there would be no trace of it in dreams of that night; I can say for sure i never dreamt of SSBM during the periods i was practicing it; it is a fighting game, i even went to various tournaments, and that game would be the only thing you would think about during the whole day, and still, no dice. During vacations i dreamt of university, during university i’m dreaming of secondary/primary school. At my parent’s home i would dream of the friends i have here at Padova (where i attend math university); in Padova i dream of my old friends and my family. There are exceptions, but it’s just what they are: rare exceptions.
This applies to what i want to do in my lucids, too: every time i concentrated during the day or else on what i wanted to do in a lucid, it never worked, in the sense i did not contemplate even in the slightest the idea that i could be dreaming and/or i slept worse than other days (but this, at least, can be blamed on too much exitement).
So, any explanations? Suggestions? Similar stories? I’m really eager to find out what this means.
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not sure why. I guess I’ve just been able to get lucid without them, so… 
; with a bit of reasoning, everything can be sorted out. ^^