Last night was extremely odd. I play a lot of video games, and was dreaming that me and some friends were attacking this building trying to get in. I had been playing Command and Conquer all day ahaha.
Anyway, I was shooting at it at first with some kind of laser. Then I decided to go up and punch some guy. Only I got the usual dream crap where you can’t swing your hand fast enough. I then turned to the guy next to me and said
“Why does this always happen when you’re dreaming?”
Bang. There I did it, I realised I was dreaming. Suddenly I thought to myself “Oh my god, this means I can change anything I want”. I then remember quickly rubbing my hands together thinking i musn’t wake up. Then something that’s never happened to me before happened. I was sat in front of my vision. I could see myself sat down. I then remembered you can make people go away as you please during lucidity so I willed myself to disappear and I (he) did. Then I started to fly, god knows where, and tried to change the scenery. It failed. I can’t remember anything else.
The thing is I am not even sure this counts. I don’t know how I should FEEL, but it FELT like I was still dreaming. What if I DREAMT that I had control but really what happened was the normal course of my dream? I really don’t remember feeling in complete control or very conscious.
I will also tell you about an odd reoccurring dream theme of mine. I get into a lot of trouble in my dreams. I have around one dream a week where I am arrested or killed. Mainly arrested. Last night something odd had happened. People had been dying somehow and their skeletons were mounted upon picture frames and hung from the walls. I should mention this dream wasn’t scary at all though. For some reason I had the blame for it and although I don’t remember a lot more, I do remember at the very end the police were comign for me.
Every one of these dreams cumulates in the same result; I think to myself how I will now spend the rest of my life in prison, and my life is over, then I wake up and feel intense relief.