Well we’re all always changing, growing and evolving, by no means do I make a claim of deeper knowledge, I only speak from my personal perspective. The ‘battle’ of choosing between one thing or another usually indicates an internal disharmony from my perspective. The way forwards thus far for me, has been to stop seeing it as a battle and start to see it as two elements that are both integrated and acknowledged within our decisions.
When I said this, I was saying you are forming a conviction, “My sub conscious does not want me lucid” that because expectations come true with lucid dreams. You will create additional problems for yourself. It’s not that I’m saying you should see your sub-conscious as a friend, or a foe. I’m saying I believe its best to see it as a tool. It is not alive, any resemblance to a will it may have, is caused by you and is therefore within your control. You just need to understand it and how to wield and control the power you have over it. It’s not something which always comes completely naturally, it takes practice and focus. It’s not a battle from my perspective though, its a learning process.
