Fear and God

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If Christianity didn’t exist, I don’t think I would fear god, or have any fear in me.

Life is a dream.

When this statement is perceived as accurate, the depthness of the immediate moment has no end, and the clarity conveyed can be firghtening and terrorizing!

I AM IN A DREAM

seeing that every-thing is illusions stacked atop one another

pitter patter motions of feet paddling a swan in circles in a lake

seeing it dissolve, and with it, the sense of self

“I no longer exist” puncuated between canyons of silence “but I do exist.” puncuated and emphasised even higher

this feeling of non-existence, the realization of “no-self” as the Buddhists say,

can be terrifying, can cause the mind to think all sorts of things “God is going to end the world, I am NOT supposed to experience this”

and yet no amount of prayer nor supplication to any deity makes this comfortable

only real people, real experiences, or deliberate acts of creation in the physical make it comfortnig

yet you are an astronaut who has just landed on an alien planet which many call “home” you are turning the radio dial, and its a dream radio, you are hearing a song, and its a dream song

you are seeing a person, and they’re a dream person

and so you think, maybe i should anchor myself, and get away from this knowledge, eat lots of food, to ground the energy

and you have this unsettling knowledge that in the top of your head, you can dissolve into all eternity

and because of Christianity you dont’ know that it’s just a-bug-zapper waiting to fry you “haha idiot, you played the game wrong! pwnt!” because God doesn’t talk to you

unless that’s him on the radio singing about love saying “maybe I’m not so crazy now”

what is the point of spiritual knowing, in the eastern context ? it is like letting go of everything and disappearing

Osho says if you experience the terror of not-existing, to experience the terror itself, and see that it, too, does not exist.

it would be groovy if non-existence, while still existing, dreaming in WAKING LIFE, while still awake, was a blissful joyous thing.

maybe that’s the next level ?

what exactly do I want? physicality is nice when you have kynd neighbors. a nice pleasant thing, to be firmly anchored in. meditation then just being to relax a bit.

why experience vivid visions ? then, what am I doing to myself?

isn’t it God’s will, that I do everything I do, even if it means I say harsh words to someone, because otherwise God would free me from the anger, like I want him to.

is there anything to pray ?

Our Father, the Lord’s Prayer?

If I knew it would be OKAY, that i am loved, not just by family, but by THE UNVIERSE, if I knew that this was HEAVEN

why does Jambi have to be about me ?

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And to think that said God had been lied to us and thrown at us the same way life creates taboos…

When realizing that the God portrayed in many religions is a mere safety net to hide open mindedness creates an epiphany so freeing yet so terrifying. The simple statement of how insignificant you really are impacts hard, and the weak-willed will crumble umble its prressure. They will fall short of every breath, and then they will resort back to God.

The same way many religious leaders play pretend while the indoctrinated stay brainwashed like the moronic logistics that surrounds humans. And I long for the day when we need no scapegoat, or safety net to help us, when contemplating our surroundings no longer frightens the indoctrinated but intrigues them.

“Hold your job down and let the zombies crowd around
Thankin’ mommy’s god that it’s a cop’s town
Keep it safe for me while I chase a fantasy
Swervin through the galaxy, searchin for a family”

And it will be in our human arts that we will find this freedom. In the music and in the art, and the speeches of those who know the so-called truth.

When insignificance proves all the more reason to be productive.

“So many people live within unhappy circumstances and yet will not take the initiative to change their situation because they are conditioned to a life of security, conformity, and conservatism, all of which may appear to give one peace of mind, but in reality nothing is more dangerous to the adventurous spirit within a man than a secure future.
The very basic core of a man’s living spirit is his passion for adventure. The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences, and hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun.”