Thanks everyone, your posts have really helped me feel a bit better about this situation. Before I felt like I was stuck with no place to go with these certain characters.
Mimicing reality or making them a big TV set to view the outside world (or my memories) is an idea I will have to try. I’m sure I can recall everything nearly perfectly. I usually have the easiest time when it comes to reliving memories in my dreams or projecting real world places into my dreams almost to the T.
The strange thing about these characters is that I don’t seem to “use” them like other dream characters. I’m not sure if it’s lack of control, or subconciously denying myself control over these few characters. Ever since I met them long ago, they’ve seemed to have tremendous independent control, thought, and personality over theirselves. With dream characters in general I can shape, spawn, modify personalities, stop or start them doing anything realistically and unrealistically with ease, but these 4 characters I talk about are pretty much set and don’t change. If I were to show them to do things in the dream like I do (flying, transporting, etc) I believe I may have to teach them instead of make them do it.
I’ve been thinking about what part of my conciousness these characters are. Now I’ve believed and used lucid dreaming for pretty much as long as I can remember. However, I was thinking the other day that maybe they are my sense of “what else”. As in, if lucid dreaming is possible and the realisticness of it is so real at times, what else could there be?
Think about this, if you think of yourself BEFORE ever lucid dreaming do you get the sense that you were somewhat lesser? Not lesser as a person, but lesser as you were not such an “aware” person or maybe “un-accensioned” in the non-godly sense? If I hadn’t known lucid dreaming, I feel I’d be missing out on a big part of understanding myself and both realities. I believe these characters feel an emptiness inside now that they know of the other reality but have not experienced it (similar to if there was a way for one of us to learn that lucid dreaming is possible and never get the chance to do it, but even more so for the dream characters because they know the reality they want to experience is the true reality). Maybe they are also the part of me that wonders what is true reality when it is not dominated by the senses (in our world) and by emotion/subconcious/etc (in the dream world), keeping the idea alive in my head that some other plane may exist.
Off the philsophical part of my post now… I’ve never asked the girl who wants out so badly why she wants out instead of the dream world, but I will do that next time. I’ve thought of that in the past, but it seems to me it may make her very sad and leading to her explanation of that she’s not real and she can’t handle that… But it’s worth a shot!
About “loading” my dreams I can explain that. I usually don’t have to associate much of anything physically inside my dream for things to happen or change. What I mean is spinning/hand rubbing/commands to change lucidity, using my hands to stop things or levitate things, etc. When I want to do just about anything I can usually just will it. However, I do sometimes do physical things in place of just willing it because it seems to add a sort of theatrical fun sense to the dream (like sticking my arm out for superman flying and stuff). My “loading” of a dream is what I like to do when I want to return to a previous dream where it left off, or relive a dream, or even relive real past memories from my life (it’s fun to make decisions in a past memory that I didn’t make in real life and see where my psyche thinks the decisions would have taken me). When I load, change my perception to a menu screen like a computer game or such. I’m not even standing in the dream looking at the screen, my entire dreamscape is just a menu screen, it’s the only thing that exists. I can search through menus of past memories, old dreams (replay mode), and old dreams (continue mode), and even other sections for more specific things or for deep searching my psyche. There is a create mode, but I usually just teleport to a white void (like the matrix) and create that way. I don’t HAVE to use this menu, but it’s just the way I like to do things in my dreams.
About my control of dreams, I couldn’t tell you how cause I don’t know. I can tell you my past. I’ve been lucid dreaming for 12 years or more (probably since I can remember). I never heard of lucid dreaming before I started experiencing it a lot, nor did I know about grounding yourself, control, etc. I just would randomly become aware that I was dreaming many times a year and each time I would experience the world. After many times of lucid dreaming I was seeing a dream character get hurt by some strange nightmare character that wandered into my dream from an old one. I had no idea about dream control, but I ran over to it and fought it. While fighting I started having the most intense feeling inside, almost like all my strength physically and emotionally were exploding, and I started to fight very VERY fast and do things not possible. I destroyed the character and then came to realize I could modify things about myself and what I can do, then not too long after that I realized I could change everything.
I was probably 6 years after I first started LD’ing that I found out that others did it and started to study it. Having LD’ed for so long I’m more interested in the philosophical part of it now and the significance it has on my life, and I’ve learned some great things about myself.