Hi all i’m new to this forum and site and just had a couple of questions and would like to share an experience i had with you guys.
Ok so i have a small background with Lucid dreaming previous to visiting this site. I used to every now and again be in a dream where i knew i was dreaming, i never tried to do this but when it happened more and more often i used to actually try and Lucid dream and was successful to a degree.
I had no prior knowledge of Lucid dreaming, nor had i ever researched it or heard that people practiced this type of thing until i researched it out of curiosity and came across this site.
Until last night my Lucid dreaming consisted of lasting no longer than a few minutes before awaking or drifting back into the dream unaware i was still dreaming, there usually wasn’t too much clarity in the dream either but enough to have a fly around and know what i was doing.
I started reading this site a learned of some techniques to help stay Lucid and applied them last night in my dream and boy did it work big time, i was Lucid in my dream to a point where i wouldn’t awake from excitement and things seemed and looked as clear as day, although there were many distortions of colours and things but everything seemed awesome and i was in full control of my dream to a point where i didn’t believe could be possible…, Until my dream started to turn on me.
I saw some of my friends and family in my dream and was talking to them and just basically watching what they were doing, they were all friendly at first but then slowly turned on me and basically started slowly getting really angry with me for some reason and eventually started yelling and abusing me. So i decided enough was enough and that so far my dream had been a great experience with the things i had seen and was able to do(fly and what not) but i now needed to wake up.
Now aside from Lucid dreaming i also get mild sleep paralysis sometimes when i’m extremely over tired and know what it’s like to not be able to wake up, and have even devised ways mentally to wake me up, which usually takes no time at all. But during this Lucid dream everything that i tried that has worked for me in the past just would not work and i actually started to panic because i could not wake up. I kept having false awakings over and over which only took a few seconds to realize i was still dreaming due to my experiences with sleep paralysis. I think i had about 6 or 7 false awakings in a row trying to wake myself up… i started to panic more because i couldn’t awake and the time spent in my dream nearly felt like two days had passed, i was finally able to wake myself by visualising two people in my dream knocking me out to scare me and it worked, i finally awoke properly and felt dazed and confused for a few seconds. Now being that my dream felt like i was dreaming for a length of actual two whole days i was so relieved to awake and actually awoke scared. I also immediately looked at the time and realized i had only been asleep for just over an hour.
So i have a couple of questions for you guys and would like to know if this kind of things is normal for newbies to full-on Lucid dreaming.
The things that scared me most was that i felt trapped in my dream when i couldn’t wake up, i felt i was in my dream two whole days but only actually asleep for over an hour. I’m scared of losing my sense of reality and even sanity doing this.
Last thing i want is to lose my mind in a dream, and never wake up…lol
has anyone else had these problems before or feelings like i have, where do we draw the line between whats reality and fantasy after a while or just even whats healthy for our mental well being.
Cheers,
Bezzzo
P.s I was actually afraid to go back to sleep last night.