This will be a bit of a long post, sorry.
I have been trying to get into LD for a few years. I have never really had consistent success. I first started just by remembering my dreams and thinking about it a lot. The most striking effect from trying to remember my dreams was that the insomnia I had suffered from for many years was instantly cured. After a few weeks I had my first LD, triggered by seeing an alien in my parents’ garden. But rather than becoming easier, it became more and more difficult until eventually I was having no LDs at all.
Then I got the book by Tenzin Wangyal Rinpoche on Tibetan dream yoga. I practised his exercises and had spectacular success after just 3 nights. My NDs were incredibly vivid and on the third night I entered into a sequence of spectacular WILDs where I would wake up with a static image and allow myself to enter the dream. I even teleported and went to the ‘next level’. The next night I had sex with someone (for the first time in about 3 years), broke my routine and found I had completely lost the ability, even though I carried on trying to do the meditations and daytime exercises from the Tibetan book. Since then I have felt extreme resistance even just to doing the meditation exercises, I can barely remember my dreams, and my sleep has become very heavy and unconscious. I had some interesting experiences of insomnia and ego-dissolution while on an intensive, silent 10-day Vipassana meditation course a couple of months ago, but not really dream-related. I feel like my whole consciousness has become sluggish since I’ve lost the vividness of my dreams. I had expected that once I started LDing, it would get easier and I would get further into. But the opposite seems to have happened. I know there are things buried in my mind that are holding me back - but I thought LDing would be a tool to unlock them.
I am not a naturally visual or imaginative person - more of an intellectual type - so I didn’t expect to be the world’s greatest dreamer, building castles in 3-day time-recycling dreams and so on, but I was encouraged by my early success that I might be able to develop these faculties and become more balanced.
Has anyone had similar experiences and can offer me any advice? I really feel lost in a certain way - although I am happy and confident in other ways - and that LDing is a key for my development. Please help if you can.
Thanks, Mango (“illumination”).