i know it sounds strange, but i think im getting bored with lucid dreams!
i´ve bin having lucid dreams for maybe 2 years, but never bin very succesful, i´ve maybe had one or two each month for these 2 years and in the start i remembered that the feeling of becomeing lucid…it was soo cool and such an strong experience. i couldnt believe “my eyes” when i became lucid, i couldnt believe the fact that this was all my creation and im actually dreaming now!
well these were some excellent times but lately when i go lucid i only go 50% compared to what i used to be. I do know that i am dreaming, i have 100% control over myself and i am lucid enough to remember my real life and what i´ve bin telling myself what to do when i´m lucid, this is quite important as i can experiment in this stage to solve the problem…wich is i cant get that magic feeling!!!, i dont get the thrill of being able to do what i want or explore my inner self. And sometimes when im on my way of becoming lucid i just feel so tired and enjoying the dream and not needing to have any control so i will just let go and go back to the dream. Just like if i were to wake up and feel to tired to go out of bed, even if someone told me i´d get 100$ for it.
And why is this? well i believe it is because i´ve had so many experiences with lucid dreams and none of them has bin very interesting so maybe i have 2 thing i can do, the first one wich is obviously best; i have to do something interesting or exciting enough to get that magic feeling back. or 2:nd maybe i just need to stop trying to become lucid for some months and after that when i start trying, or when i get surpriesed by becomeing lucid i wont be bored with it and the feeling will come back.
the reason that i dont have that many lucid dreams is that my life does not allow me to sleep so much and i dont have time to put in so much effort, maybe i will do one or two RC a day. and if i stopped doing these i think i wouldnt have LD´s at all. And i know that in my studies i could use my LD alot, its quite competative and i have something my classmate dont have and so i want to use it!! (I´m studying fashion design, menswear) so i´d rather not stop, and i dont want to , i enjoy doing my RC´s and thinking about LDing. But if that is the only way i can get it all back maybe that is what needs to be done!
Please help me, maybe there are people with similar experiences. maybe someone did something that was so cool so it inspired Him/Her to LD even more!
Probably the reason that i think it´s becoming more boring is that i have so much else to think about and do all the time so LDing comes in 2:nd hand and i dont put so much effort into it…but then again my real life (studies) is much more important so i dont have much of a choice…but i want to “relearn” LDing so that it can help me in my real life! i dont know how to weigh this but i know thats something only i can do and i don´t ask for help with this.