Hi all, I’m new here. I have lucid dreams every so often, but the one I had last night blew my mind a bit and ii would really appreciate and love some insight if any of you have some…
Here’s the dream: Got lucid while dreaming about skateboarding (I’m a 37 yr old woman, so that was interesting). I Made the intention to see dad who passed away in 2008. I shot off, chest first flying and passed through many rooms and what seemed to be dimensional walls (?)
When I stopped I Couldn’t speak well (like a stroke) but finally could. There was a man seated behind a desk. He struck Me as a kind of greeter. I asked him, “Are you my dad?” He didn’t “feel” like my dad, and He didn’t look like dad. He didn’t respond. I felt confused, there was a feeling of separation. I was extremely lucid.
A moment later a different man walked up to me and led me aside. He looked to be in his 30’s with kinky-curly hair, a white man. He told me that I needed to contact a psychic and inquire about a blood test or a DNA test. All of a sudden I felt compelled to touch his hands. They were scarred in patterns like henna. I touched his hands and looked deep into his eyes and when I did his face morphed into a young Indian man (India, not Native American.). He was absolutely beautiful and strong. He struck me as a holy man or a healer. Then he looked into my eyes and said “the reason you came here was NOT to see your father. The reason you came was to have a physical experience.” He led me into a train car type thing lined with beds with curtains for privacy. I jokingly asked him if he was a prostitute and he didn’t answer, but I got the knowing he was kind of like a sexual healer. I told him I wouldn’t have intercourse w/ him but we still got undressed and touched, kissed and I masturbated him to completion (sorry for the TMI). When he came, What came out was a very thick, golden stuff that he quickly cleaned up. He kissed me and touched me. I didn’t have an orgasm, but I felt loved. I felt in love with him, but I also felt that there was an emotional boundary that he could not cross.
I asked him how I could contact him and he told me that his dimension isn’t in contact with mine and there was no way. I felt in love w him. I felt like his job was this, and even though I was special to him, this was as far as it could go. I rolled on top of him and we just stared at each other and talked a little bit. Then he informed me that it was time to stop being Lucid. I felt SO SAD, desperate even. I wanted to stay with him desperately, but he made it clear to me that was impossible.
I grasped and clung to him as I we were pulled apart. I clung to his hair/head but it ripped away in small diamond shaped pieces (like pixels) and looked almost digital as we. As he came apart from me, my lucidity began to fade.
I woke up into a normal dream, then after that I woke up.
I don’t really know what to think of this. it was strange to me that’s intention was denied and that I went somewhere else completely. I wonder what the actual purpose of this experience was, and if other people may have experienced these sexual healers… Seems strange. It was a beautiful experience and I truly hope this being truly exists somewhere. I feel thankful for the nurturing he gave me. I would be so grateful for ANY thoughts, opinions or insight you might be able to give me