Just before i go on, i would like to tell you something about lucid dreaming. It is a skill worth learning. Sometimes it can be rough or you can feel ilke you are moving too slowly, but, it is a skill that will change your life, but more importantly, change the way that you sleep, which after reading your post i feel would be a very good thing 
ok lets begin.
I too know the feeling of knowing you have had more dreams then you can remember, and with practice this feeling will turn into a slight recall or feeling of the dream, which will in turn lead into full blown memory of it, as real or if not better then memory of an event that has happened to you in waking life recently.
When i first started lucid dreaming, i wrote down 10 words in my dream diary, and i thought that was a lot to write down about a dream. Now, and i am sure that people here can second my response, where i almost write down too much! i now can write down pages and pages, and the memory is even clearer then what i write down.
It takes practice, but the world that you find is one to be amazed by, the more that you remember of it, the more you will be rewarded and the more secrets you will find 
so my tip to you here would be this. dont try to lucid dream for 2 weeks, i know thats hard to do when you first start and you jsut wanna hit it up and lucid dream, but i suggest you send the 2 weeks increasing your dream recall.
The best way to do this would be to keep up what you are already doing, writing in your DJ, just the thought of wanting to remember your dreams will spark a desire, which in turn will lead to better recall. When you wake up, keep your eyes closed if they are still, and let the first thought that comes into your mind be, “what did i just dream?” dont move and let the dream flow through you, try and "feel see taste expereince the dream as if you were having it again, the money will become stonger if you are re expereinceing it again instaed of jsut thinking about it. Dont move untill you feel the dream is concreate, at first this may take a minute but with practice it takes less then a second.
After 2 weeks of writing down your dreams read over your book and look for common dream signs, themese, or events. also notice the improvement in your recall and congratulate your self this is important.
- Ok now for a wild… this is different for everyone, but personaly this is how it works for me. It is better if i do this with a technique called WB2B Technique or wake back to bed tech, and it means just that, getting up in the middle of the night getting some water or something and going back to bed.
Wild for me is hard if i try to do it without WB2B, its hard fora lot of people, because your mind is going crazy with the days thoughts and you have to sift through the 90 minute cycle before hitting dream land. I am going to post a report on the dream cycle over the next week so have a read through that if you want to know more.
Anyway, waking up then going back to bed i will lye there and feel all the tension in my body and feel it slipping away, focusing on each area, head face neck arms chest etc etc feel your body become heavy and very relaxed. you will soon enter into a stage known as SP. once you feel your body become heavy, focus on anything bar your body! if you only focus on your body you will not move into the next stage.
So once my body is heavy i focus on images behind my eyes, or sounds tastes. if they are not there already i will imagine them, for example i will focus on a medow with a tree in the middle of it. I will feel the warm sun on my skin, the breeze on my face and the sounds of birds chirping, i will in my mind walk up to the tree and brush my hand up against the bark feeling the rough teture and the sound it makes. Before you know it you are actually dreaming about this sence and you will realise you are dreaming, as this was your intent.
It takes practice, but there have been people who claim it to be the best way… i dont agree with this but each to their own ways.
- mmmm ok i feel this is aproblem, not so much with lucid dreaming but with sleeping in general! there is a few things you should do, and one of these is call reconditioning your mind. go to google and type in NP2. Read about brainwave entertainment, read abou the benifts and how it works, then download the program for free and use it. if you want to know how to use this program pm and i iwll walk you through how to set up a program, or iw ill write you one that will help.
This will also help with your problem of feeling someone is watching you in general.
The only problem to lucid dreaming in my expereince is this.
You.
if you beleive you cant you wont, if you think you cant you wont, if you think you can you will and it will be amazing. remember that.
it seems your dream was slightly disturbing, i can interp it, but i feel it is important that you do that your self. One you start looking at your dreams you will start to understand them better, and in turn not only remember them better but find it eaiser to lucid dream. I suggest, if you do have these types of dreams a lot, on focusing on happy thoughts, even if you dont feel that way, getting comdy videos etc and not looking at violet vids b4 sleep. as hard as bad dreams can be when you dont know how to lucid dream, they can be a blessing when you can lucid dream, not only can they act as a dream sign, but it is also a great way to face your fears and negative feels and rgow from it.
SP is normal and you may even learn to enjoy it, a lot of people do
I suggest taking your time and looking around the forum, getting to know the people and the techniques, finding the ones that work for you and ones you feel wouldnt.
Also please start a DJ, i would like to keep track of your progress and help you when you need it.
If you have any other questions please dont hesitate to PM or write on the forum.
Best of luck and i hope this post has been of some help
