OK, so I want to have a nightmare. (But i’m not 100% sure why.)
Why?? What could possibly make me want to experience something everybody tries so hard to avoid? What’s wrong with me?
Well, I cant remember ever having one.
I have had some memory problems in the past, caused by a head injury a few years back. This has resulted in me having very few trusted memories of my life pre-injury. I do have an old DJ from that time but there is no nightmares recorded in it. And I have had no nightmares since then.(I have gone back through my current DJ to check if I had). I think the closest thing to a nightmare I have had was during one of my cliff jump dreams.
I often jump off cliffs in my dreams but there is usually water below me or I have a parachute.
On this one occasion I jumped and then realized I had no chute and the water had dispersed. There was now nothing but rocks below me. When I realized this, I began to freak out. But the moment I did, the dream changed and I was on a cliff with another cliff opposite. I could see a person that had fallen off the cliff and was already about half way down, still in free fall.
I laughed as he hit the rocks below, and stopped existing. I mean, what kind of idiot falls off a cliff?
A few days latter I re-read the entry in my DJ and realized that I was the one that had died when I hit the rocks.
I don’t consider this dream to have been a nightmare because it wasn’t a negative experience at the time.
I’m not entirely sure why I want to have a nightmare, I have heard about how bad they can be. But for some reason I still feel like I’m missing out on something.
So, is there a way to induce a nightmare? I kind of want to have one, just once.
Or is this something I shouldn’t be chasing?