Hello everyone!
Last night I have a very unusual dream. This dream was sort of “half-lucid”. Let me tell you the whole story
I went to bed sth about 3 a.m., after very long day and with a lot of thoughts. I comfortably lied down on right side, relaxed muscles and closed my eyes. I wasn’t even thinking about dreaming - I was a bit tired and wanted to fall asleep. When I was lying I’ve been thinking about many things, but with time I started to “floating away”. I would normally fall asleep, but I still have some thoughts in my head and I became lucid (so I accidentally used WILD technique ). I felt the sleep paralysss with fully awareness (I thought to myself “it’s a sleep paralysis”) and “woke up” (like a false awakening) in my bed, the same way I lied down. I would like to add, that when I use WILD I always wake up in my bed in the same posisition as I was falling asleep, so I know it’s a false awakening and that I’m lucid, so this time I also knew this from beginning.
So I woke up, with conciousness, in my bed. I said “now I’m in a lucid dream” and tried to get up, but I felt on my face, like my legs aren’t properly working. I didn’t felt the pain, I tried againt and this time I succesfully got up. I rubbed my hand, repeating to myself “I know it’s a lucid dream, because I false awakenned in my bed after falling asleep and paralysis”, and I was fully aware of the dreaming. I decided, that first thing in my dream will be talking with a some person (it’s sort of my real life dream), so I tried to recall that person. It didn’t work. There was very dark everywhere and it was night, so I thought that it will be nice to change the time to sunny day. I closed my eyes, imagined a day, said “I’d like to change the time to day” and I opened my eyes - nothing happened. I found a switch on the wall and tried to use it to turn on the lights, bud it didn’t work, and I thought “oh, it’s a dream, so the switches won’t be working”. Then, for a moment, I thought that maybe it’s not a dream and I will wake up my family, but after a moment I thought, that I’m 100% sure it’s a dream. An idea came up in my head - it’s a dream, but somehow I don’t have full control on it - and then I rubbed my hand again and tried to loudly said "I’m dreaming’. Guess what - my lips were like glued together, I couldn’t opened it! I tried few times and succeded - I said “it’s a lucid dream and I know that!”. I went down the stairs, saw my parents preparing to go out somewhere - I thought “well, they wont be needed in my dream, so they could go”. My mother held my dog - normally the dog has very long hair (Maltese dog), but this time he almost has no hair - I saw that that, laughed and thought “haha, he has a long hair in the real world, so this is surely a dream”. I tried to change the time to day again - ineffective. I tried to recall a person - ineffective. It was like I don’t have enough “power” to do that. Suddenly I closed my eyes in dream, and when I opened it, I saw my quilt - I know I woke up. I decided not to move so I could “land” into another dream, then, out of the blue, the quilt started to change into a cat (daydreaming?!), which jumped on me and grabbed my hand. Again have I realised it’s a dream, so I imagined my hand is a gun and I will shoot the cat through the opened window - this time it worked. I closed my eyes again, woke up, saw the quilt (the same way I saw it before), but this time I moved and fully woked up.
This dream lasted very long, and as you can see, there was many times when I was sure and conciousness of the dream, but I couldn’t use the power of the dream. The whole time I felt, like my subconcious part of the brain is trying to wake me up, but my concious part was bravely fighting. But the final part (with the quilt) was eerie and amazing - like I was strolling from reality to dream without any border!! I don’t know what to think about it
What was that? Was it a half-lucid dream, or was it a sort of lucid dream without lucid dreams’ powers? And what’s with the part, when I opened my eyes in real world, and the reality changed to a dream? What do you think, was it my subconcious task to wake me up?
And the most important question that I’d like to ask - how to let the conciousness fully overcome the subconciousness, when NORMAL ways (like reality checks, rubbing hands, realizing that is a dream and even fully critical look) don’t work?
I would appreciate any help or answer, to my question or just to the topic. And thanks for reading - there’s a lot of it as I can see now
Greetings!