The past few lucid dreams I’ve had, I haven’t been completely aware that I’m dreaming. I Know I’m dreaming, but part of me still feels like it’s real life. It’s like I’m not aware that I Can do Anything…
In the past I’ve been really good at remembering my lucid dreams and I’ve had no trouble flying or doing whatever I want… But now it’s like I’m not as aware I’m in a dream, in my mind. It’s like, I don’t 100% believe I can control it, so I use reality logic instead. Not to mention there’ve been wide gaps in my recall of my lucid dreams, but that’s never been an issue in the past… I’m not sure what’s changed in my life since then… but I have been working on dream recall and I sleep with a journal next to my bed now, but I haven’t had any lucid dreams (that I remember at least 
) since I started recording all my dreams so I’m not sure if it’s made a difference yet.
One really good example of this in a dream was, I was at this pool and I went over to these two little kids and asked if either of them knew Atar, and if they knew where I could find him. (Atar is my spirit guide, and Ive been trying hard to see him in my dreams recently, but I havent been able to yet.) One of the little girls said, yeah but good luck finding him, hes my brother. First of all lol, how could that even make sense but of course since I wasnt completely aware I was in a dream, I thought it made perfect sense (like when you see something completely abnormal and out of place in your dreams but you think nothing of it.)
So then I was trying to figure out how I could get in her house without her becoming hostile towards me, because she obviously didnt want me to see him and I was afraid of her getting mad because then she or somebody else might tickle me out of lucidity (which is another issue ). I could have just searched for him somewhere else, seeing as he couldnt be this little girls big brother lol 
I dont remember a lot that happened after that. (I do remember I found him but it wasnt really Atar, but thats for another post lol)
So, why do you think I havent been able to retain the right mind set for complete lucidity anymore? Its getting kind of frustrating, and I think maybe it has something to do with my waking life, but I cant figure out what… maybe Im not as aware of everything going on around me as I was before 
… What are your thoughts?
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