so anyway as one last thought i was reading something about the shadow, and about beliefs that evil comes from within, not without… and that it is good to explore your darker side (i think it tied into lucid dreaming) to acknowladge that it is there …
and when this is done, stepping through the shadow if you will…
when a man angers you and you reach out to strike him, you will be able to intercept it, because you see that you are not striking him because of his actions, you are striking him soley because of an evil desire within yourself, and you then see there is no reason to strike him, no justification, and you realize the absurdity of violence.
and here we go to a tool lyric
no fault none to blame
it doesn’t mean i don’t desire
to point the finger blame the other
watch the temple topple over
to bring the pieces back together rediscover communication.
look within yourself you know, for the evils of the world… you know… i wish i could paraphrase the lesson better… but it was great. it isn’t their fault, it isn’t yours either… but as long as you recognize the desire for violent retribution is not the result of someone wronging you, it is the result of dark desires that lie within yourself, it is not their fault… you are not hitting them because they are a jackass, you are hitting them because inside you is a the capacity to lash out in instinctual anger with no benefit…
(i wouldn’t say we need to be completely pacifistic, i believe in defending myself… but in most cases violence is totally unnessescary)
as i’m remembering more of this text it said something akin to when we blame evil on the world, on the devil, we live in denial that within us is the same capacity, the same drive, to commit evil, and as long as we are in denial if a moment came upon us into which we were driven to commit evil, it would catch us so completely off guard that we may not be able to intercept it (punching someone in rage for example)… but if we explore the darkside to us and accept that we have evil within, we can trasmute it and bypass the instinctual anger/evil based desires we have, and realize that there is no need to follow through with them.
something like that…
WHERE DID I READ THIS? It seems like it was from a dream but I thought I read it yesterday… man… where? Was it on here? In my dreaming book? I don’t think so.