Yep, all gone.
I realized this while I was reading through some of my old entries today. I freaked out a couple days ago, and for the last couple nights I’ve still been reeling. I have been consciously trying to not to remember my dreams the next morning. I was still trying to digest my experience from a couple days ago, and I wasn’t in the mood to have anything more to think about.
Today, I had finally gotten myself straightened out, and I decided to start back on my normal dream cycle. To make sure I would be ready to handle it tonight, I started reading past journal entries. As I was reading through my journal, everything seemed so unfamiliar. Typically as I read it I could relive my dream or at least get an image of it in my mind. This time I was totally blank. I would have even thought it wasn’t my journal if I didn’t recognize my handwriting.
One by one, I read every entry through up to last, and not a single dream registered. Warily, I began to read about my recent Lucid dream/nightmare/SP thing.
If you have read any of my last posts, you’d know that this thing has been on my mind for days. I had been reliving it in vivid detail in my mind over and over. Every aspect, good and bad had been examined. I had no reason to believe that I wouldn’t remember it all as I read it then. I held on to the notebook a little tighter expecting it all to rush back.
One more giant blank in my memory.
I don’t get it. It’s like I’ve systematically erased every dream I’ve had over the past year out of my head. I know they happened, I remember thinking about them, but I don’t remember what I thought about. I’m used to specific dream recollection dimming over time, but I’ve never totally forgotten everything at once. What’s even more peculiar is that I didn’t ever expect to forget my last dream and it vanished just the same. Right up until I read my final entry I could see it, then it disappeared.
This is too weird; I still can’t even comprehend it.
Has anyone ever had anything like this happen?
More importantly does anyone have any idea why?
Any sort of idea or comment would be appreciated.