It was a few years back I started having Lucid dreams. I remember the first ones so vividly, the rush when your whole Consciousness was pushed into your dreaming self, how amazed I was that this actually was a dream, and not reality!
Since then my hectic lifestyle has not afforded me the time to teach myself LD
I also think I stopped my interest in LD’s because of the following reason.
But now I want to get back in, And so I have practised. I had two dreams this week.
- someone in my dream asked me where I lived, I realized I dont live in the dream and answered with my real adress. I became lucid but it felt weak, still like a normal dream, even though I even remember my real adress!
I looked at my hands (something I always do when I reality check and when I become lucid) and said out loud, more clarity! more clarity! But it didn’t do anything. it wend back into a normal dream…or was it all a normal dream? it felt like I was dreaming that I was becoming lucid in some weird way. - I was being hunted by my own will, I was playing with the people who hunted me, I thought of doing something boring to persuade them (no point going in to detail here) and realized why do something boring in a dream? Could have (should have) kept that thought and told myself this is just a dream out loud, but I was having so much fun in the dream I choosed to keep on deaming.
So I think you see my problem. I don’t know why but I don’t get that rush from becoming lucid anymore. It’s like I am bored! how can you become bored of the idea of a lucid dream? I remember when the biggest problem for me was to stay asleep cause I got so excited when I became lucid!
I have tried to set a mission for myself, like next time I become lucid I will find a “spirit guide” or I will have sex with that person etc. Just to keep my interest when I do get lucid. But my dreampowers are to weak and I cannot fulfill my goal and when I don’t I slip back into dreaming
I don’t think there is a right or wrong answer to this, I was just wondering if there are anyone out there who had similar experiences and what they did…or if someone just have a thought of what might help me or what they would have done…
Thanks for reading!