I haven’t had an LD in the LONGEST time. Since I’d say about August.
It’s sucked man, it’s totally sucked. I have had TONS of dreams, every night I’m recalling two dreams or more. I’ve stopped recording them because I stopped getting lucid dreams and I started to get depressed.
Well, I want to get LUCID again. I used to use the WILD method and I’d be able to get to sleep paraylsis EVERY night. Now I can’t even induce SP anymore which sucked so much because I’ve been able to do that since I was 10.
One big change in my life is my lifestyle totally.
I moved out of my parents house. My hygene has changed. I shower twice a day as opposed to once a week. I’ve gotten a job. I went from a TWIN size bed to a queen size bed with an ACTUAL box spring matress. Before my bed was just a matress on the floor. I’ve even found religion(former atheist) and I pray every night and soon will attend church(it’s too far for me to attend at the moment).
So my life has literally taken a 180 degree turn for the better. The only thing is I lost the ability to lucid dream and because of this, I’m depressed. Despite all the good that has happened to me, I’m depressed. I’ve decided to attribute my depression for my unabillity to LD
Someone told me that once I started LDing my mind would start doing it passivly and I’d never be able to quit. Well this couldn’t be farther from the truth, I’ve been attempting a WILD multiple times a week and I just can’t LD.
What should I do? Should I try WBTB? Should I try MILD? Should I just give up?
Here’s how my sleeping conditions have changed.
My former room was just a matress, computer, and television. There was a LOUD industrial sized fan I had on the floor. It was extremely loud but for some reason it seemed to help me get to sleep faster despite the noise.
My new room there is a queen sized bed on a box spring complete with sheets and a comfoter. My pillows have changed from cotton filled to feather filled and my fan has changed from a loud fan on the floor to a quiet one on the ceiling. Also I moved from a town house to a seperate house that is about one mile from the everglades. It gets much darker here and is much more quiet.
Could my inability to LD be because of my new surroundings? Wouldn’t my current setting actually be a better environment for lucid dreaming?
And the biggest change… no more parents to pester me anymore. They told me my whole life “at 18 we’re kicking you out.” Well I hit 18 and they told me they were just joking and I could stay… well I cashed in on my trust fund and bought my own house.
What’s wrong?
(sorry for this extra long post, I’ve been absent from these boards for the longest time)