Thanks guys, I dont what my problem is. Ive been obsessed with death, and dying to the point of making it a hobby. Using Tibetan dream yoga, and what not. It seem the Egyptians based there whole world around the land of the dead. I mean they spent there whole lives, building pryamids. Maybie, Im just going through a faze of trying to overcome my fears of death by saying I am dying. I admire people like Timothy Leary, and Huxly. These people looked at death as a altared state of consiousness to explore. They didnt fear it they looked forward to it. I have noticed something about life. It seems every moment in life comes to a emotional peak. Even right now a moment in life is peaking, but we dont realize it because we are in the “now”. Every moment in life is peaking with overwhelming emotions. Have you ever walked into a old house you havnt been in for a long time, and smelled the odors of the house. You get a rush of emotion, and memorys. I can walk into a house I havnt been in for a year, and be brought back to that time. I think when we die all the smells, and sounds are stored in us, and as we are going back through our lives( life flashing before our eyes) We will hear music from that time, and smell the smells of that time, and it will be a very intence “high”. Imagine hearing music you havnt heard in years, and at the same time smelling a smell you havnt smelled in years. That would be so emotional, and wonderfull, it would definatly make your heart melt. It would be the greatest expirance ever. As you revisit the moments in your life that have peaked to there ultimant zenith. I think this is gods plan for us in life, to expirance his love in this way. It would feel like unconditional love. Gods plane is to basicaly get us high with a drug that can only be expiranced at the time of death. Thats why there is no need to fear death. Its like the movie “American beauty” Where he is describing going through his life, and it being so beautyfull his heart allmost explodes. Thanks againe for your comments. I think Ill will be O.K.