Impossible to Meditate...

Hello to all my brothers and sisters in this forum. I am sorry for having to post so long, but watching these wonderful conversations is almost too inspiring for me.

I would like to talk about a problem that exists within me since, like, EVER.

As I start meditating by focusing on my breath and pushing gently away every thought, the process seems challenging, yet easy. But as the minutes pass by, the “fantasizing attacks” of the brain get stronger and stronger, and after 5 minutes of “meditation” I end up fully fantasizing or thinking something irrelevant, WITHOUT my will. 5 minutes more, and my brain will react by making meditation nearly impossible.

Why is it so difficult to me after all those years to “push thoughts gently away”? Why they are returning and messing with my meditation?

Note that these thoughts are never of an anxious nature. They are usually trivial, and most often about things I have learned about meditation, and conversations that I have had.

Any similar experiences??

Alex - always here, even if I don’t post so frequently now…
In’Lakech

Alex,
I was taught a meditation technique that has proved helpful for some people. There is an inner sound, a humming or buzzing sound that Kirpal Singh has called our connection to the Universe. Some say it is the sound of Om reververating throughout existence and refer to it as the Sound Current.

I listen to this sound in addition to attention to my breath. The cool thing is that it’s very hard to listen to something and to speak at the same time, so listening to this sound makes it hard for the mind to chatter so much. I’ve used this technique for 25 years and it has served me well. It’s also helpful for dreaming. Listening to it as you go to sleep calms the mind. I’ve even entered lucid dreams directly by this listening to the sound current. Hope this helps.

dreamster

you are using a mantra right?

I use mudras depending on which chakra I am working on, for example I use “lam” for my most problematic chakra (root).

But when I am not working on a chakra, I concentrate on the sound and concsious experience of my breath.

meditation is letting go

does it matter if you are thinking ?

hold one thought

chitter chatterchitter chatterchitter chatterchitter chatterchitter chatter
not hold one thought hold one thought hold one thought hold one thought
chitter chatterchitter chatterchitter chatterchitter chatterchitter chatter

but HOLD ONE THOUGHT

think it ONCE

and then see how long it takes for it to be forgotten.

i advise kriya yoga as brought by babaji to quicken enlightenment, reading autobiography of a yogi as a start.