Well its hard to explain I guess. Its just that I rarely feel interested in reading up on lucid techniques, or even trying to be lucid. When I try to MILD the words become some sort of looping record in the back of my mind. It seems like “lucidity” and “lucid dreaming” are just words to me…no longer concepts and they no longer hold meaning.
I know I could just take a break from it all, but thats basically what I have been doing for the past weeks. MY DR has gone to the toliet, and my focus and energy for LD have dissapated. I want to LD, but I need my old enthusiaism back. I like to think I am a very focused person, I get work done timely and efficently…so why cant I redirect that efficency towards LD?
I guess the biggest concern for me is the fact that LD has lost meaning to me. I’m really not sure what it is anymore. To be honest I’ve only had three LDs spread out over a year. My first was WBTB and MILD and the other two were “oh I’m dreaming” kind of things. Because of recent failures and let downs it may be that “lucid dreaming” doesn’t seem to be what it once was for me.
I’d love suggestions and to hear from people with cases like mine.
Think of what you could do right now if you were dreaming.
I get lapses like these sometimes where I forget what it’s like to have a lucid dream and why I wanted to have it in the first place, but I always seem to forget two things. I’m not doing anything else at that time, and I can do anything when I become lucid. I guess it’s such a difficult concept for me to wrap my brain around when I forget about it.
Plus, ND’s are fun all the same. They’re interesting things to think about over breakfast and the like.
Sorry I can’t help you much with motivation. All I can say is every time you imagine something you would love to do but couldn’t, your should remember that you can always do something like that in a lucid dream.
As for motivating you, there isn’t anything that anyone other than yourself can possibly help you with. Now, let me just get this straight; you aren’t motivated to have lucid dreams, and yet you want to have lucid dreams. I suppose there’s a difference in motivation and desire, so that isn’t all so contradictory. Or is it that you want to want to have lucid dreams? If that’s the case, I can understand what you mean. I’ve had the experience of wanting to want something, but in reality not really wanting it in the first place. I hope that makes some sense, or I may just be rambling on like a complete fool.
The desire and motivation are now gone, yet a part of you still wants it… That’s not so much of a great feeling, is it? I can’t tell you what you should do in this situation, other than wait it out. If not, you may want to take a look at some of the lucid dreaming stories that other people have to share, just to help you become more motivated.
So in a way it would be a semi RC, to think “yes i can do that! If I were in a dream.”
I understand what you mean, and I think that factors into a lot of it. I want to LD, but sometimes I feel like I’m pushing myself to something I don’t really care to work for. I love LD its really interesting…but I dont seem to want to actually do it. So yeah, I want to want I guess.
And I think I might just browse the DJ section and read up on other peoples LDs.
