Since I have already completed the current two tasks of the challenge I decided use my LD´s for spiritual understanding. Tonight I made four attempts to WILD, two of which were succesful.
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The first started as a very negative dream, although I wouldn´t classify it as a nightmare. While in my parents house I saw my mother, and realized this had to be a dream, since she died a few years ago.
The first thing I did was zap a unsupecting genua pig that happened to be in the room while shouting ´Thunderstrike!´ Her hair was standing up in all directions while the energy flowed through her. She was not happy.
Then I remember my goal. I walk outside the house, and look up to the sky. ‘God, what is the purpose of life in this universe?’ I ask. It was a different question that the one I had originally intented to ask, but it was still a worthwhile question.
Immediately a strange force starts to pull my body forward. I feel being stretched, like if I was being pulled towards a black hole. It’s a good feeling though, and I realize that I am going towards a beautiful place. I guess this is a vehicle as well, or at least a means of transportation. I expect to be going upwards into the sky, but instead I am being pulled northwards.
A strange creature starts to claw on me. I don’t realize it at this time, but this creature is a product of the negative energy that was in this dream before I became lucid. I know the dream will not last for more then a few seconds, so I won’t get to visit this beautiful place. The creature seems to rip my body apart, although it does not hurt, and the dream is already fading.
After this I made two unsuccesful attempts to WILD. The first time I felt my body vibrating as my body became paralized, but my mind was to awake to enter the dream state. The second time I don’t remember as clearly. I thinking I was viewing different people and locations, but I wasn’t in the dreamworld yet.
-Short LD: 20 points
-Driving a fictional vehicle other then the main three: 30+15+20=65 points.
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The fourth attempt was succesful however, and I am in the same location in the dreamworld again. It’s daytime now though, and the negative energy that was in the first dream is gone. I decide not to call God this time, but look for my SG. I have never met him or her, although I’ve had many LD, so I believe this is a good time to start.
First I walk through the various rooms of the house. At each corner or door I expect to meet my SG, but he/she is not there. I want to exit the house, but it is like a maze so I am unable to. Finally I rush to a wall and break through it with my body. I am standing in the garden behind the house. There are various people here, but I can’t find my SG.
The next thing I do is walk around the house. Again, around each corner I expect to find my SG, but I am unable to. Finally I ask an old lady driving a car if she knows my SG or if she perhaps even IS my SG. She replies negatively.
Finally, I decide to call God again. ‘God, where I am from?’ This was the question I had intended to ask in the first dream.
The strange force starts to pull on my body again, and it feels just as right as the first time. I am pulled towards the sky though, and not northward like in the first dream. I am being transported through a tunnel, and end up in a landscape of rolling hills, and small patches of woodland. Somehow it feels more permanent and ancient then anything on this planet. The colours and air also seem somewhat different, although it’s hard to put my finger on exactly how.
In this land there is a group of about eight people, who look completely human. They then start to transform into figures of clay. They are still alive and human, but they have unintelligent expressions on their faces. They are still human, or they have the potential to become human, but they are primitive and very, very old. I know I couldn’t have a conversation with them, because they are not intelligent enough at this point in time to actually speak. They look more like extensions of the landscape then anything else.
My visits to this place ends. With a blinding flash of light I am back in the normal dreamworld, but my dream ends soon thereafter.
-Long LD: 40 points
-Driving a fictional vehicle other then the main three: 30+15+20=65 points.
Besides those two dreams I have also had other images of insight, both last night and this morning just after my second dream. They are related to the truth of life, this universe and our purpose in it, and all other universes out there. Needless to say, they were extremely beautiful, and they have increased my understanding tremendously.
Not sure about the score this time, but my calcuation is 190