Hi, I’m new to this site but have been having lucid dreams for a while now. The one I had last night seemed a bit different though and I felt was worth sharing. I apologize in advance for being vague/incoherent.
What I believe to be the first thing that I dreamt was a couple of unrelated dreams where I was swimming to Bermuda, in my friends car, etc. They were rather uneventful save for the fact that I had illogical thoughts that made sense at the time(often happens). After that I experienced what people online would call a False Awakening. I imagined waking up on my couch and having my parents telling me to come upstairs(spoiler about my age), but everything felt errie like a nightmare. They said some other stuff trying to beckon me to come up and eventually I did though scared. When I got upstairs they weren’t there but I heard creepy noises and this was about when I realized it was a dream. At this point in my story I need to tell you that I was studying Buddhism online the day before and stumbled asome stuff about lucid dreaming. There were many parts of my dream that had fragments of stuff that had happened in reality. Anyways, once I realized it was a dream, I tried to look around for something illogical but couldn’t find any. Then I remembered the concept of looking down at one’s feet(also the idea of spinning came to mind but it wasn’t helpful at the time). I also tried to manually open my eyes which has always worked for me in the past, but it didn’t fast enough. Sure enough though when I looked down all I saw was blurriness and as far as I can tell I woke up. However, either I had another false awakening, because I remember looking at my feet when was back on my couch and I’m not sure if they were clear, or I dozed off and woke back up. By the time I was actualy supposed to wake up I remember feeling still scared and had to try a lot harder to convince myself of reality then normal. Also I was alert towards anything illlogical still happening even though I was clearly awake for real.
It was around this time that I started to think on what had happened. One of the main questions I thought of, and am asking you right now is: could I have not actually been lucid but dreamed that I was? since I was looking it up online the day before and there are several other pieces of my dream from what I had recently done. Or is the mere fact that I was awake that it was a dream at all enough to claim that I was lucid? I cannot say for sure if I was awake for real after I attempted to wake myself up, but does anyone know of any similar circumstance?
I should also mention that I have had much less frequent amounts of lucid dreaming compared to when I was a child. Mostly my use for it was to escape nightmares, since I’ve had less sinec then I’ve guessed that’s partly why. I’ve felt like I’ve lost control somewhat and I guess that’s why I’m writing this. It’s a scary thought to think that my nihgtmares can make me think I’m using my only failsafe when I’m not especially in addition to false awakenings.
So anyway thanks for your feedback in advance 
